Yeah I know what you mean. My abilities just started opening up more after I decided to do psychedelics again after a 10 year hiatus, I believe I went through an accidental kundalini awakening. It unlocked something in my mind and scared me for a while until Lilith and Lucifer started helping me get through it.
Maybe wondering astral spirits or astral parasites? Whenever something like that bothers me I tell it to piss off. Oddly enough as I am typing this, I’m wearing a large set of headphones and there’s a weird “humming” coming through the headphones even though I don’t have any music or sounds playing. It has me wondering if something is trying to manipulate the headphones to communicate. Although the only entities I could think would do this would either be Lucifer or Lilith since those are the only spirits I work with right now. Lucifer actually introduced me to Christ once and I was kind of dismissive because I’m very guarded against allowing new spirits in. Lucifer said “you were fucking rude, apologize”. So I apologized to him and told him even though I can’t work with him now, I’d be willing to possibly do so in the future. Jesus was actually pretty chill and understanding about the whole situation.
Lucifer hates my smoking habit and keeps telling me he’s going to make me stop but my will is pretty strong when it comes to that one habit so I still haven’t quit even though he constantly says “it’s disgusting”, which is kind of true. He does like a glass of red wine from time to time but if I start drinking too much he tells me that I’m “acting like a pig” he says the same thing when I eat too much. He actually helped me lose about 40 pounds over about a month and yeah, drinking in my experience is probably the worst drug to use when it comes to your spiritual development.
Yeah, I’ve noticed they kind of like occasionally using these substances in moderation but it’s very rare that Lucifer asks me to buy wine even though he likes it because he knows I have a drinking problem and doesn’t want to tempt me. He really is a wonderful person and a good mentor who cares about me. It makes me feel bad that doesn’t get to enjoy some of the things that he likes because of my problems.
This seems really odd to me. I supposse it is possible that spirits treat people differently. Maybe they can be kind of mean if they are just trying to help someone. I can only speak about my experiences with Satan and God (both really similar). They were never mean to me in any way I can remember. They would never care about me not wanting to work with spirits. They supported me in wanting to be independent, and I believe this is best, because spirits are probably really busy, and it would be better for ourselves to be able to help ourselves.
Are you sure this wasn’t a parasite or something. Again, I totally don’t want to make assumptions, because it could be Lucifer, but it’s just that great beings like god and satan never treated me like this.
Again, only evil spirits have ever treated me like this. Evil spirits have called me disgusting before. Again, I cannot make assumptions, because it is possible that Lucifer is just trying to help you.
He didn’t care that I didn’t want to work with him but he went out of his way to introduce me to Jesus because I asked him earlier that day (in a bit of a nonchalant way) “how would you feel if I ever decided to work with Jesus?”. It would be like if I knew a celebrity and I went out of my way to introduce you to that celebrity and you just dismissed the person I went out of my way to introduce you to. It would be kind of a dick move.
So we’ve basically made an arrangement. During most of the day, when he’s teaching me, he can be a lot like a drill sergeant because I’m a super hard headed and stubborn person. I’ve always been rebellious. I’ve never listened to anyone, not even my own parents, so this seems to be the only approach that works. I think my rebellious nature is actually what made him want to reach out to me in the first place since he’s a rebel as well. Also, he’s not always “mean”, he’s actually super nice and loving a lot of the time.
I used to be a hoarder and he helped me learn to throw things away. My house is actually starting to look normal after years of it looking like complete crap because of the advice he’s been giving me and whenever I do a good job he always tells me and says he’s proud of me and at the end of the day when my “training” is over for the day his personality seems to do a complete 180 and he’s a complete angel. Lucifer has at least a couple of different aspects. His “darker”/demonic side is a bit more prideful, willful, and determined. That’s his “meaner” side (although I actually don’t consider it mean, just more like a disciplinarian).
His angelic side is like the purest love I’ve ever been in the presence in.
Yeah, see above. That’s his dark aspect but his dark aspect has actually probably done the most to change my life for the better in terms of my overall living conditions. His Angelic side has healed me emotionally. I think I’d be a wreck without his demonic aspect and I’d also be a wreck without his Angelic aspect. I wouldn’t give up either one for the world.
Edit* Also I know it’s Lucifer because I finally invoked him a few days ago and the invocation was a complete success. He was also the one that told me to do these rites.
Are you working with the one Lucifer or is it someone who fills in for Lucifer?
Can he really be in multiple places at once working with several people?
Can he be in infinite places? If so, would this make him more of like an idea or super computer or something? I am not trying to take away the spiritual aspect of him or anything. I just want to see how this all fits into our reality and possibly the spiritual realm as well.
For those of you haven’t seen it, I think ya’ll would enjoy it.
^I second this assertion, I gave Belial an offering of steak and Bulleit whiskey once and he bypassed the steak and went directly for the whiskey. Said the steak was a nice touch but not what he was craving at that point.
@roulettekiddo not derail any more threads, if you want to post randomness, do it here, if you do this kind of thing again I will close your account. I appreciate you were drunk last night and that happens round here, but step back next time or go post somewhere else, there are plenty of forums full of mindless bullshit and provocations.
But if you derail a thread again with bait-type posts and whining about how misunderstood you are, I will close your account.
Take some personal responsibility and have a think about whether this is the correct forum for you to be on every single day.
And to everyone else, threats to hex another member WILL result in a ban, on this occasion I appreciate that the comment was withdrawn, however this is not the wild west or some kind of pissing contest, threats are against the rules and are a bannable offence, so don’t let someone who you think is stupid, also cost you your account.
Think before posting and if angry, log out and go do something else.
Individuals can learn that from anything anywhere. This is the most argumentive blog I’ve read in a while. Is it a blog? Do I have a BALG blog?
Practice in your belief is a fine exercise. Its an individual’s path not others. Your experiences are your own. Blog them if you must. Reflect upon them. There are sites that are much better suited for blogging. Who am I to talk? I use discord to blog and iphone notes.
Hello all… i would just like to post a part from the (public) introduction of @roulettekid here.
I was curious to see where does he hail from and his experience in magick etc
And i think I found the reason why nobody can communicate with him and understand him.
Kind regards to everyone!