Not much to go on, so I take a guess that you fuck up a friendship not fucked a friend. In that case I am kinda feeling you have gain an understanding of the old proverb “A standing cock has no moral conscience”. Hey that is so cool everyday you learn something new is a good day and that one is great to get out the way, well done some never learn it. But back on topic turn your pain and self disgust you are feeling into a POWER self-discipline I would suggest Duke Dantalion, keep your lust just BECOME BETTER THAN IT! Go read this in full I think you will find this demon extremely helpful in get an iron clad self-discipline, understanding how you think so you can avoid shit so on…