I was on a total right handed path of love and being good to people as an empath. I was tired of being taken advantage of.
So I decided i wanted to work with Belial and lucifer whom i have known since i was a child.
In my bullheadedness and spiritual ego, thinking i was quite enlightened at the time I asked them to help me ascend and overcome my shadow.
My life has been turned upside down.
My uncle came after me, hes trying to get me to go to prison for super old shit back when i was all fucked on drugs.
Ive fucked up multiple times too. Calling shiva, Kali, Ganesh and multiple entities into my life to help me ascend.
And i fucked up big time.
Doing this right before i came into a high vibe town. It seems like many people are psychically attacking me.
Additionally my uncle did conversational hypnosis on me and put an impant of dark energy into me.
My fears are being put directly in front of me.
Since then my uncle has manifested around me in conversations and other shit.
Can anyone provide some insight?
I asked belial and lucifer to help me be kind, to ascend, choose love and confidence in myself no matter what. Used to working with angels I thought i understood what this meant.
Now i feel im in a world of shit.
I feel socially ostracized, questioning even if my family loves me.
Additionally ive been feeling ill and im told my kidneys arent able to keep up with this change.
Im seeing symbols of death all around me.
“Sorry” says someone around me.
Can someone please provide some guidance or information as to what i should do?
Homeless, jobless, living in my car and almost broke.
I fucked up because i asked “help me ascend no matter what”
BUT on the upside. I asked the angels to help me with this pact and stop me from being harmed too much by this.
But at the same time i feel cut off from guidance.
Even my own intuition feels fucked.
Good things i did: read into belial and lucifer.
Im figuring out the puzzle.
Other bad things i did: chanted a ka dua and asked for wisdom and godhood. Even though a little voice in my head told me not to. I kept going despite this little voice in my head multiple times.