Yes I agree with you as well.
No I was saying I could have use magic but after I sat with myself and combed through my emotions/ reevaluated the relationship, I realized that the lesson was more important than getting her back. I only wish I could set things right between us. The relationship had a very gross ending and just over all isnāt worth trying to patch up. Sometimes, moving on is better then staying miserable together. She was not mine to begin with, she choose him, and held it against me. They used to dry hump and make out under the tree out side my dorm window knowing full and well I was watching. She would guilt trip me and manipulate me. In the end, when it was my last day there and I was openly saying good bye to all the people we hung out with (both of them were sitting there with his arm around her watching me too) she said nothing, she had two other chances and nothing. And the three months after I got home, my friend told me that she said she missed our good Ol days.
What Iām trying to say here is, donāt let things get out of hand. I fucked up bad, and I know I did, she did too. There is not a magic great enough to fix what happend. I just hope she has a good life, with or without me in it.
I donāt think Iāll ever love again.