So I have made my attempt at evoking Suhn’tal’ock from EA’s book of Azazel. So far I have made two attempts at this with both involving structuring. Both attempt involved EA’s incantation to summon spirit. In both times I had experienced throbbing in my forehead afterwards and increased sexual arousal. The manifestation was different-ish both times and idk what to think of it.
Attempt 1
I saw like a completely black cow/goat shaped figure with three heads like a Hindu deity as I was structuring. I also had vision of thick black energy him. But here’s where I was discouraged. I asked him to show me a sign that he’s truly there and got nothing then asked him to at least show up in my dreams or something and nothing so far (I slept with the sigil under my pillow).
After the rite I felt intense sexual arousal and throbbing in my forehead and had to take care of myself.
Attempt 2
The next day (today) I tried the rite again because I couldn’t sleep. This time the black mist and a figure was forming but it was like a human with a crown and cloths thats a mix between Indian and European design I think.
This time I didn’t ask for a sign rather asked questions. Because the rite was somewhat impromptu, I didn’t have anything to write down the answers. But here’s what I asked and tried to empty my mind and say whatever word that came up in my head. Below are the questions and answers out of memory thats not very accurate. I see now why its mandatory to take notes.
(Note that I only got words at a time not sentences so the following sometimes isn’t coherent because I may have missed some. I’ll use a … to indicate that.)
Question: Suhn’tal’ock what do I do to achieve success and ascent?
Answer: Do what you are doing. … Countless generation … come before you … you are the climax
Question: Suhn’tal’ock I feel like I’m wasting my life away with doing what I’m doing
Answer: Unite with the infernal empire … become one …
Question: How do I do it? What actionable steps can I take?
Answer: Do what you are doing and connect with me … become one with myself…
This is a very rough inscription of the thoughts popped up my mind right after I asked the question. Keep in mind I did not communicate with him directly if at all.
So I’m looking for some feedback here. Has anybody worked with Suhn’tal’ock? Am I doing this right? I mean did I just talked to myself or was there something? Any advice will be greatly appreciated 