I need some advice. I am not new to this type of stuff by any means, but I am just starting my magickal learning journey for sure. I used to be an avid lucid dreamer and had astral projected a few times in high school, but since got heavy into meth and heroin and marijuana usage which stunted my abilities in these areas. I have since got sober (since November now) and have begun reintroducing myself to these experiences. Now the thing is that I have been attacked by a black entity that felt like latex a few times now. The first time was in sleep paralysis a few weeks ago, I was in SP and was attempting to project, but as I left my body and began to orientate upright, there was a being that appeared as a black humanoid figure that felt like latex. The first attack it grabbed me as I was trying to project and become upright and struck me in the stomach with its fist and threw me back down on my bed. I felt the blow to my stomach and the being then held me down and I got the impression it was trying to rape me. I was stuck in this state for quite some time. I knew enough not to freak out because only relaxing would free me, but even relaxing it held me in this state for quite some time. I tried imagining a white light but had no ability. I woke up after a few minutes of feeling it caress me and telepathically laugh and jest at me. I was trying to call out to my roommate but of course to no avail. I had a small period of time where I allowed myself to freak out and it of course only made it worse so I quickly calmed myself back.
The second experience was last night. I awoke to an intense fear directed towards the corner of the room but quickly fell back asleep. I again awoke in SP being held down and “raped” by this thing. This time I just tried to relax so as to snap out of it but I was held in this state. I could feel its hands on my sides and it pressed against my back. It was a ticklish feeling. I eventually called for it to leave in the name of god and then the Archangel Raphael. Upon the second name I felt it begin to scream and recede slowly. It finally snapped and I awoke out of it.
If anybody has any idea what I’m dealing with any help would be appreciated.
These things dont so much as frighten me anymore but it’s quite irritating and a bit unnerving.