4/12/18
Unblocking: Heart Chakra and Love Matters
I am doing so well with unblocking lately that it’s crazy. My heart chakra was really blocked up, but after correcting some thought patterns I have whooshed back into sync and no longer feel beside myself. First blockage I fixed was the guilt and fear over pursuing the Left Hand Path. I am unapologetically an LHP practitioner now. Second blockage was releasing the grief and worry and obsession over my romantic life in the past, worrying if I’d ever find good love with a human. Now I have removed most of the last of my chest pain, by literally feeling that I don’t need love.
Never thought I’d get to that point. But everything else is so great that I don’t need it. Maybe cause I’d been connecting with a narcissist. But it really helped me understand how love should only be a casual and complementary thing. I’d love to date, but maybe I don’t need or want love at all. This is an important change for me since I was such a die-hard true-love craving and suffering romantic. I’d honestly have more fun if I could play the field, and not in a user way. I could give a lot of gay boys healing whilst also not getting hurt by their own personal issues.
Still happy with my current boyfriend though.
Another Odd Thing To Report On
I went into my bedroom yesterday and found two cockroaches fucking on my headboard. I shit you not. They were backwards connected. Interestingly that spot is where my incubus sleeps beside me. Also, the love jar spell I made is under that area too. Hmmm.