15/04/2018
Evocation of Lucifer
So I did this, and my personal experience is my own. In the past I have had very tangible experiences with Lucifer’s energy. The stand-out being that time I meditated on him at work on night shift, and he ‘came through’, his presence very real and there, and staying with me for hours afterwards. A proper recount of that can be found on this site somewhere. Another time I was doing a ritual for a purpose, and not targeting any spirit though I sort of ‘asked around’, saying a few names of deities I figured could help, and then I thought “what the heck, I’ll ask Lucifer too” and upon saying his name I felt a strong presence come over me. This recent evocation began with the intent of focusing on just Lucifer, and his presence didn’t come through as strong as before.
I have no reason to think it didn’t work. I didn’t meditate as long as I should have, cause it wasn’t too early in the morning and I was pretty sure my room-mate and her boyfriend were sleeping in the house, and you can’t lock the garage from inside it. Plus it was uncomfortable sitting on the concrete surrounded by those candles. I get poor circulation in my legs from sitting cross-legged, probably cause I’m tall. But anyway, I did feel him he just didn’t come through as strong as before. Might’ve been better if I’d stayed there longer.
I said aloud what I wanted, which was that I wanted him to help me evolve. I wanted to be able to do soul travel, have my intuition and spiritual senses improved, and have a clearer mind with better focus. Thinking about it now, I really need to be aware of my inner self. I need to focus on aligning with his energy if he’s to help me, and I’m sure meditating on him can’t hurt. I did get the distinct feeling that even though this was me formally calling Lucifer’s influence into my life and asking him for help, he was already here, around me and waiting for me to reach out. And I suppose I knew that, before.
So it’s my job now to focus on him and make sure I’m aligned.
Psychonaut Field Manual
Lady Eva shared a link to this for someone in a comment, and I’ve wanted to reply but I’ve since been unable to find the original comment. This comic has come in really useful to me. First of all, the focus-based meditation, where instead of removing all attention you direct it at one thing, is helping me get the focus I’ve needed. Since I do have difficulty with focus at times. And secondly, I was amazed to read the side note about ‘blue pearls’. I’d been seeing them before I even knew what they were! So that’s definitely reassuring. I’d assumed I wasn’t a clairvisual type, but now I know that I could learn to develop that sense after all.
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