My ‘slowness’ is acting up again. I have spoken with both mods, read the rules in depth, and have read the heck out the threads trying to understand how this place functions.
I am still making faux pas. I am embarrassing myself on a social media setting again. Having so many different learning disabilities as made it extremely difficult for me to make friends, and to keep them over the years.
Being nervous doesn’t help. Afraid of saying the wrong thing. You do. Afraid of getting people mad at you.
I didn’t speak for the first few years of my life. Then having speech problems. Fighting just to say words. Teaching myself at 5 and 6 how to correctly pronounced and learning letters at the same time. I could speak, just not very well.
Extreme neglect, combined with learning difficulties. Not a great combo.
Television taught me everything in the early years of my life. Music too. It’s why it means so much to me.
My entertainment was, and is my life.
Anyway, having to actually learn what most other people do naturally creates a barrier. Most people can sense my differences.
How I speak, pronounce words, write and think as been manufactured because; if I didn’t do it I would never had able to communicate in the first place.
My personality is always evolving on what I see around me. I keep my lingo up to day, what is the correct way of saying things and presenting myself to others.
This just how I am. Nothing more or less.
I like myself, most days.
This was extremely hard work. I had to find ways of surviving.
I wanted to be a cool, fun and hip person. It’s extremely important to me. To my life.
I am a handcrafted person. I like to think of myself as a living work of art. The great masters were never satisfied with their works. Neither am I.