I have depression and i cant get out of bed. I have no relationship’s with anyone, no friends, i am an adult, but i just need some advice on how i can balance my life out with magick. Because its what keeps me alive.
You’re just gonna have to push yourself bro , Work as much as you can , if you live in your parents house you will be at the mercy of their trauma and projections and toxicity
doing negative magick on someone living in the same household as yourself is the equivalent of shitting in your own bed. get up and out of the house, if your not willing to do that for yourself then im guessing you like the abuse.
Your just gonna have to map out the reality you want with journaling or dreamboard and take action towards it until you suceeed
What’s the reason your depressed ?usually it’s because energy is not flowing correctly , I mean your repressing an aspect of yourself or don’t believe you can obtain something you desire
Can lilith help me achieve my goals?
I have alot of blockages. I feel repressed because i want to achieve so much with magick and i need ALOT of energy to get me up and going. So i tend to close in on myself.
You have plenty of options. You could create a servitor, and have it change your mother’s feelings towards you, transmuting the negative energy she is putting out into positive, for exmaple.
The angel Mahasiah, according to Damon Brand’s book 72 Angels of Magick, can bring peace to a home.
Hahaiah can “make enemies into friends.”
Hariel has the power to “bring peace to your home.”
Veshariah has the power to “protect against the unfair.”
Kevekiah can “bring peace to a family.”
Rehoel has the power to “obtain the love of a parent.”
As has already been mentioned, using baneful magick on your mother while you live under her roof is inadvisable as it would affect you as well. The options I have given can help ease the situation while you work on getting out from under her thumb.
I feel like i cant take up for myself the way i really want to.
Your going to have to take a lot of action too you know and even just basic manifestation techniques can help . If you know what yore doing an entity can help
What’s a dream board?
Thankyou for your advice
Images of stuff you want to your reality to be , financially , lifestyle etc
Why does it take so much energy for me to use my visualization or imagination?
It shouldn’t , try eating healthier and working out ,
Ill start working out for sure. Im getting too lazy.
I get the not being able to move out thing. It’s hard moving out the first time.
If you’re having trouble gathering energy, maybe instead of trying banishments or evocations,start with simpler things? Like chakra energizing and health, or just calming meditation, or like darkestknight said maybe do some energy work/simple servitor creation? You could also create an astral temple for rituals or medidation if you havent already.
Here’s links that i’ve found helpful and keep refering back to.
Most of this advice so far means staying in your room where that cloud of negativity is so my advice is to also get out of your room as much as possible and do something positive.
Once you have some positivity in you then the rest of it can be seen more clearly.
Thankyou. I will get my ass outside
Buy the book Words of Power by Damon Brand, there are three books of words of power, I suggest you get all three but the second one, Greater Words of Power has a ritual called Make People Warmer towards you, it works and there is another called Improve the Mood of those around you. You only need to do it once, but you can perform them as often as you feel is necessary, and they work. You don’t even have to say the words aloud. It’s the simplest form of magick but it is powerful.