I do do “decordings” as you describe often. It’s just sometimes it’s like there’s a bubble over me to stop certain things. Or an invisibility cloak. For example, when I did that money request and my table neighbor got the results. My roommate pointed out that I can’t seem to ever cast spells on or for myself, and I was like, “Oh. Oh yeah.”
I recently went to, well, sort of like a job interview. Although I was very very much liked,I was also passed over. (No, really. VERY liked.) Now, some of that was a clique environment. Friends got the “job” - so that I feel my time was being wasted by trying. And the rest is, well, there’s a lot going on with that. I won’t bore you guys with that.
My future and plans actually depends on being sparkly and being noticed. But I spend a lot of my time being made to feel it’s like I’m not there at all when this comes up, or that people’s perceptions of me are being twisted.
Or, when I am noticed in a good way, those that take me on or try to get involved suffer terrible, terrible bad luck and things are essentially killed by bad circumstance.
Getting tired of that in my old age, you see. I decord, I “detox”, I do unbindings, break curses, beg for assistance in being attractive, you name it. Speaking positive things? I’ve gotten VERY good at it. Got an instagram dedicated to it, even. And for the most part over the years I’ve made some success. There’s just this… block sort of. When I look in the mirror I can “see the sparkles” and no bad is there. In fact of late - praise those that are helping!!! - I’ve seen some serious improvements in regards to what I’m doing. And I shine like nobody else can - trust me on that one - but what the hell with the glass over this rose. /endrant
I’ll do another shower ritual tonight.
I’d like to know more about this entity. I’ve seen him now - and I could tell he didn’t care for that too much - and I happen to know I can “reach out and grab him”. But before I do, is there more about him anywhere I can look at? I’m not blaming him necessarily, but… well, he DID step into my sphere of attention…