I work regularly with a variety of entities within the Ars Goetia, but I don’t write down what I did and how much progress I’m making etc. Sometimes I forget what I asked from a specific entity, thus making it difficult for me to keep track of my workings and progress. So, this will be a virtual space for me to do that. Feel free to chime in with your thoughts. This journal is my personal space though, so if you want to keep track of your workings, please create a topic for yourself.
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I petitioned King Belial two full moons ago, in late July. I have asked for a stable job. A job that will allow me to move out and have an apartment just for myself. I have been pretty much unemployed and living off of my saving for the past 7 months. It is taking a huge toll on me mentally. The job market is fucked. I am doing literally everything in my power and it is starting to burn me out as well. But I trust King Belial. I have been getting signs from him. But I can’t help but be anxious. Because the deadline (kinda) I gave him is the new moon in September, which occurs where I am on the 11th. There’s still no opportunity in sight. But I will continue to wait patiently and work on my situation until then.
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I have also recently petitioned President Valac because I urgently needed some cash. Around 450 dollars. I expressed that I don’t want anybody giving me that money as help or as debt. I want to earn it by landing some type of gig. I needed the 200 asap. And the other half a bit later.
A few days later I ended up discovering that somehow I completely forgot I had 270 dollars in one of the accounts I don’t really use anymore. I totally thought I had transferred all the money in that one to an account I use daily. Apparently not. Thank you so much for reminding me Valac!
I’m still in need of around 200 dollars though. He hasn’t been able to provide an opportunity for me to make that money yet, but I’m still holding my hopes up. It’s been weeks, though! 
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I fear I am fucking up the one amazing thing Queen Beleth (she comes forward to me as a woman, so I feel it’s more appropriate to refer to her as Queen). I have done a love petition years ago. And she fulfilled it in the most beautiful way. She literally delivered this person to me with her bare hands. And he is my person, he fits my description of an ideal partner to a T.
Still, we have been on some rough patch lately. By lately I don’t mean days or weeks, I mean months. I am so nervous that this relationship will not survive it.
I see that both of us have intense love towards each other, but our wounds and the shit that life throws at us make it very difficult for us to connect and really feel the connection.
I have been working with Queen Beleth, Amon, Agares, Vual, Dantalion about this. Not to manipulate anything so it ends up being the outcome I want. But to gain clarity, soothe misunderstandings, help us process things in healthier ways, and gain some insight via divination.
I feel like we’re having a Tower moment. I was so anxious about the whole thing. But I feel like this will end up being a good Tower moment. The way we are co-existing right now, the way we are functioning is simply not sustainable. It needs to collapse entirely and we must build it back up in healthier ways.
I have recently done two eye-opening Tarot readings with the help of Duke Vual and Duke Dantalion.
I’ll update this matter as things happen.
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I am currently facing the Tower moment regarding my relationship I mentioned in my last entry. I had a heart-to-heart talk with my partner today and before we met, I did a tarot reading. The Tower was for sure right there. So, I was prepared for some heartbreak on my way there.
My partner is going through some tough stuff right now, I can see that. And he’s been isolating himself. I knew that he would try to push me away too, eventually. And this meeting was exactly about that.
I was so, so anxious before and during it. But thankfully, I managed to keep my calm and guided him through it, so that he couldn’t spiral into self-hatred.
It’s really all thanks to Forneus. I don’t know why I was drawn to him. I don’t think I’ve ever worked with him before. I have thought about it for some stuff, but never got around to doing it.
I asked him to make sure that when I speak to him, he can feel my love, he can see us in a good light and my words don’t make him feel worse. Because you know how it is, when someone’s in an emotional crisis, they will hear what they will want to hear. Even though you tell them something with love, they won’t feel it. And I asked Forneus to create a safe space for us as we had that conversation. And he really opened up. I opened up too. We needed this conversation.
We’ve entered something like a “break” period. We will still be in communication and meet in real life as well. But I will give him the space he’s asked for. We’re stepping back from our usual relationship duties and our routines for a bit.
To be honest, I’ve been through some shit for the past year and I need some space to heal as well. We’ve both needed healing but instead have been pouring what’s left of our energy towards this relationship, for fear of losing it. It’s not healthy.
Anyway, I’m just really grateful for Forneus. I really felt his energy work with me today.
Thank you, Forneus the Great Marquis!
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I want to note down something Forneus keeps reminding me, a sentence he’s embedded in my conscious and subconscious mind: I am someone who can be okay.
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Thank you Glasya-Labolas.
Having a mental breakdown, crying a bunch and doing a Tarot reading. I desperately need some clarity of the mind. I can’t think straight.
Years ago, I have petitioned Glasya-Labolas to bring me mental breakthrough. And it was exactly that. A few days later, I literally felt like a veil had been lifted off of my eyes.
I asked the same thing from him again. I don’t have many answers yet, I am still too emotionally flooded right now. But, he has promised me that he will be with me for the next few days. And he recommended once he has given me some clarity, I should make contact with Queen Beleth again, an re-do our “contract”. I don’t know why he used that word. But I will be following this advice.
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Will be invoking Asmodeus.
I’ve worked with him on various stuff for the past year -maybe even more- and we’ve gotten along greatly. He would pop up in my mind a lot, I felt him around me quite often.
For the past 3-4 months or so, though, it’s as if he completely disappeared. I only noticed when I thought of him like a month ago, and was like, wait, why don’t I ever think about Asmodeus anymore, where is he??
I’ve decided then that I should invoke him one day and just reconnect, and chat. Then I kinda forgot him again. But for the past two weeks, he’s started popping up in my mind without my thinking about him intentionally. So I know it’s him reaching out as well.
I will be making contact with him tonight. Fingers crossed.
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Reconnected with King Asmodeus.
I’ve been feeling really down lately, but the moment I started my attempt to connect with him, I felt a surge of energy (and arousal lmao).
I felt that the reason there’s been distance us is both down to him and me.
I realized there’s nothing but negative talk in my head. So it was a bit jarring to hear him voice his thoughts about me, all so uplifting. That’s how I know it was definitely him, not me, lol. He offered me a different perspective on myself and how I’ve been.
Anyway, I’m just glad I finally took the time to reach out to him.
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Wednesday night. Preparing for my upcoming ritual with Queen Beleth on the night of full moon in Aries.
I could do it tonight as well, I’m pretty much ready, but I’ve decided to wait until Saturday.
This full moon will align perfectly with breaking old cycles. It will provide the surge of power I need to burn away past debris and reignite our flame.
My 7th house and natal Mars is in Aries, so thanks to this full moon, my energy should be very potent regarding this kind of ritual. Also, my partner will be positively influenced by this full moon energy. As I invoke Queen Beleth at my altar, the astrological shift will already be pushing him towards opening his mind and do some healing himself.
There’s also the Venus and Mercury retrograde going on. It’s the perfect opportunity for Queen Beleth to ride the astrological current and work her magic. Retrogrades are about demolition, review, and restructuring. And I am basically asking her to dismantle the unhealthy dynamic we’ve fallen into and rebuild a healthy one for us.
I will ask for this “break” period we’re in right now to be done, and for us to be fully reconciled and enter a healing process together by the end of Venus retrograde, which is mid November.
This will be a tough period for me, for us. But I really have great faith in this. I trust Queen Beleth. She’s never failed me.
Fingers crossed.
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Nothing came of this, unfortunately.
I don’t really blame King Belial. I think there’s some sort of obstacle I’m not aware of. Because I have petitioned numerous entities to help with my career, my job search, financial opportunities. I have tried countless things myself. Nothing is yielding results. I really don’t know what to do.
Having reconnected with King Asmodeus, I am tempted, no actually, I feel called to do a ritual about this with him.
My mindset has been, “I will do any job as long as it pays the bills and puts a roof over my head.” But maybe that is not meant for me. I really want to do something I love, something I’m passionate about. Maybe that’s what meant for me. And when it comes to passion, who better to ask than King Asmodeus?
I am also thinking of making it a collaboration between him and Prince Seere. I have worked with Prince Seere before and he’s never turned me away. And I keep seeing posts about Prince Seere, public recognition and gratitude type of posts. Maybe it’s a sign that I should ask for his help.
Because at this point, I don’t have the luxury of petitioning an entity and then giving it a few months to see results. I have almost dried up my savings and I need a sustainable and reliable source of income. And I need it fast. That’s what Prince Seere does best!
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Meditated on Queen Beleth’s enn before sleep last night.
Here is one thing (among a couple of other great messages) that stuck with me: “You need to be able to trust yourself first and foremost.”
This message feels pretty complimentary to what Forneus has told me: “I am someone who can be okay.”
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The night I’ve been waiting for.
“Queen Beleth, I call upon you. Queen Beleth, I call upon you. On the night of the Full Moon in Aries, I call upon you.”
I have just wrapped up my ritual. I was a mess before I started. But after I lit my candle and did a mini Tarot reading, I got the green light to proceed. And that made me feel more confident.
I had a very sudden shift of perspective right before I was getting ready to write down my petition on paper. So had to draft a new one. And it’s perfect.
At one point I was so in tune I could really feel and hear Queen Beleth in my mind’s altar. She soothed me and guided me.
I wrote my petition, and the candle wax spilled on it. I took at as a sign that this is her will. So I poured it over her sigil. It looks so pretty with red candle wax on it.
Then I went on the terrace so I could actually look at the full moon. I recited her enn a few times. I read my petition out loud under the moonlight.
I was listening to her enn the whole time on my headphones. Just as I finished my petition, the video changed on it’s own. I didn’t touch anything. I have premium so the screen was off, the video playing in the background too.
A song came on. An instrumental. (Here’s the song for those who are curious) The weird part is in the title are listed three zodiac signs, two of which I have as major placements in my chart (Sun and Venus). And, the video was uploaded on my birthday last year! Definitely not a random video. I am not sure what Queen Beleth wants me to understand by this. It’s called 360°. And in a way, this is a 360° moment, isn’t it? Years ago, I wrote a petition very similar to this one, asking for a true connection to be brought into my life. And this time, I am essentially asking the same thing, but the difference is, I have a specific person in my mind. This time, I am asking for the true connection to be reborn.
Anyway, it is a great track. I have it on loop right now, and will continue to listen to it. Thanks for the recommendation, Queen Beleth! Haha.
I have asked Queen Beleth that our full reconciliation reaches it’s culmination point before or at the end of Venus retrograde this year in mid-November.
I have also asked her to be my mentor. Because I am now understanding why this relationship took a nosedive into misery. Goetic spirits usually do not act as lifelong guardians of a situation unless explicitly bound to do so. I re-read Beleth’s description in the usual grimoires again and it explicitly says Beleth causes love until the Magician is satisfied. I asked for the connection, she provided the connection. Done. After that point, it was all up to me. I should’ve taken better care of this connection and I admit it, I didn’t.
She is the master of this domain. She will act as my guide in the domain of love and emotions, teaching me to navigate and master it. I don’t fuck things up again, haha :') But it’s not forever, of course. (I don’t wanna use her as a permanent crutch. I don’t want her to run my relationship. So I wanted to ask her to teach me how to master her domain.) We’ve decided her mentorship will conclude upon the Spring Equinox in March 2027. I believe I will have learned a lot and gotten my footing in love by then.
I’ll update as things happen.
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Oh well. So, I had a health scare. My friend informed my partner on Sep 29. I wasn’t planning on reaching out for various reasons. But upon finding out, he initiated contact with a worried text.
On Sep 30, he ended up coming over to my house and stayed for the night. We had a heart-to-heart talk and ended up sharing the same bed. We are not officially getting back together yet. But something genuinely shifted that night. I can feel it.
I’m studying astrology to understand and navigate these times in a better way.
Sep 30 was the exact day Mercury entered Scorpio. Which means the start of a Mercury-Venus conjunction that will build over the next two weeks. And that means what’s said and what’s felt become the same thing. Sep 30 was the start, while this whole thing will peak on Oct 7, but it doesn’t make a huge difference, it was already active that night.
Venus at 8°20’ Scorpio was within about 2° of his natal Lilith (6°17’). He’s a Scorpio Venus which means he doesn’t do surface-level anyway, and this close to his Lilith means things I said likely touched the part of him that doesn’t usually get voiced. And I swear, it was like Beleth was whispering things in my mind. I said all the right things to be said. Like… wow.
He’s still hesitant. Scared of doing stupid things, hurting me. That’s why he still believes we should give each other some space. Until when I don’t know. But this conversation for sure opened a door without necessarily resolving what’s behind it, yet (in Beleth I trust, fingers crossed). I think this conversation prepared the ground Beleth will do her work on.
I have studied our charts and transits and stuff and how they are likely to affect both of us during October.
On Oct 5, Mercury will be exact on his Lilith, I expect a raw, unplanned admission from him. Well, even if he doesn’t end up expressing it to me, I think something will finally click in his mind.
I expect Oct 12-13 to be particularly heavy for him. I will be extra careful in my communication with him that day, if we talk.
From Oct 20 onward, especially after Oct 24 (Mercury stations retrograde), I expect communication to get slower, foggier, and he will possibly get more hesitant or inconsistent.
Oct 23 feels significant, it’s the exact midpoint of the whole retrograde. It is possible that either (or both) of us may have a sudden “oh, I get it now” that day.
Notes to myself: Lean into frequent contact in the first half of the month. Don’t treat Oct 24-Nov 13 as a normal texting window. Don’t take Oct 26-28 personally if he goes quiet or pulls back.
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Sorry for barging in on your journal! I just wanted to say that I love the relationship you have with the entities/spirits, and that the way you do your magick is really inspiring. I am enjoying your journal a lot so far, and I hope the best for your goals! I really hope you’re okay after that health scare, as well 
Ahh thank you! You’re not barging in at all, I welcome comments, questions, suggestions etc. Thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate it 
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Of course!
I haven’t been feeling okay for a long time. But especially lately, I’m noticing I feel foggy, unmoored, less able to trust my own read on things, more porous to whatever’s around me than usual. These past two weeks or so though, I feel like clarity is slowly coming back to me. It feels as though I’m getting snapshots into the future, or the path I’m supposed to walk through.
It’s like the errors of my ways are laid before me. Each day, I see more clearly where I went wrong, what I failed to notice, and what I interpreted differently. But it is as if my old mindset is at odds with me and my brain automatically approaches my current problems using that same mindset. It’s so frustrating because I know I have to act differently. I know that the old ways won’t get me anywhere, but my mind and heart still insist on following that old path.
Also, I’m not entirely sure where these little glimpses of the future come from. It is either Beleth or Glasya-Labolas, of course. I had generally asked Glasya-Labolas for clarity regarding this matter, and I have experienced sudden moments of insight, just as I have in the past when I sought his help.
The reason why I’m questioning whether this clarity is from Glasya-Labolas is that some of these realizations come gradually, like things are unraveling piece by piece. So I think this might well be part of Beleth’s guidance.
And my belief that the pact I made with Beleth would end the way I imagined has drastically changed tbh. I think Beleth is more interested in teaching me a greater lesson here.
Because I can now clearly see why this relationship dynamic reached this point and what my own role in it was. There are things about myself I’ve wanted to change for a long time, but I chose to focus on other matters (this relationship included) instead. But I can no longer ignore them. If I want to grow, there are certain things I need to do. I don’t want to go into detail here, but it’s related to interpersonal relationships. And I believe that is where Beleth steps in. I think Beleth’s way of thinking is: even if I were to restore the union now, the foundation isn’t solid, so it is highly likely they would fall back into the same cycles, and the relationship would likely collapse at the slightest tremor. First, I need to bring Dilys to a state of wholeness on her own.
And I am ready and eager to do what is necessary. Yet, my underlying motivation is still to set this relationship right. I don’t want to change and heal myself for my own sake. I mean, I do want to, but that isn’t my primary motivation. I realized this during a tarot reading with Beleth, and the cards she revealed were very clear. I must do the work on myself for myself. Only then can the atmosphere necessary for my partner to return to this relationship be created.
Doing this will be very difficult for me. I am terrified of letting go, yet that is exactly what Beleth wants me to do. The scene Beleth planted in my mind during this reading was this: I am standing at the edge of a cliff, holding a rope. The rope is dangling downwards, but I cannot see what is at the end of it. All I know is that I do not want to let go of this rope, because I cannot risk losing whatever is attached to it. Beleth says, “I can guarantee you that it will come back to you.”
If letting go of the rope doesn’t actually mean losing that thing, if it is going to come back to me and I know that for sure, then why does the idea of letting go still make me unbelievably anxious?
Ughh…!!
Oct 4. Did a quick ritual with Prince Sitri. (Unrelated to the relationship issue I’ve been dealing with lately. This is something else.) I believe he will help me out. I’m offering him a homemade chocolate brownie once my wish is fulfilled. Lirach alora vefa Sitri 𓆩♡𓆪