My path in magic didn’t work out from the very beginning. Quite by chance I met a man who became my teacher. He is still my mentor to this day. After just two months of his training, I was able to use astral projection. Not perfect, but good enough. I learned how to manage energy, breathe and focus. I learned how to make servitors and other things. I had just turned 20 at the time. I knew enough to work with spirits and move into astral realm. But I didn’t have a picture of the world formed. Which played a big role in what I’m going to tell.
My world was made of cookies and rainbow clouds. Besides, I had a great interest in Lucifer and considered him a cool angel. (Yes, I didn’t understand the topic that much). I came up with the fucking great idea to fly to him and ask the questions I’m interested in. We talked for a week. One day he told me:
L: Do you want to control the forms?
Me: What does that mean?
He showed me how I control the clouds, turning them into a storm and many other interesting things
L: An eon of years of your work in return for an eon of abilities.
I don’t remember exactly, I asked clarifying questions and later agreed.
L: Turn your back on me.
I saw a metal chain entering my spine. A huge energy has passed through him into me. I was breathing heavily, my body was full of energy. Finished
I heard someone nearby say “This is a curse” and laughed.
Me: Why did he say that?
L: He doesn’t deserve attention, calm down. You and I understand what it is.
After that, he gave me a little workout. I was asking when can we get started? He said it wasn’t time yet and I had to learn to control myself.
A month has passed, I was flying around my city at night and suddenly came under attack by a large dark creature. I returned to my body and began to defend myself. It had a big impact on me. I broke down. I don’t want to describe what happened in the following months, which I was also under attack. I was gaining strength and recovering for a long period of time after the incident. Still.
Soon I will be 21 years old. I raised my knowledge about entities, their working methods, politics, the influence of the spiritual world on the physical world and how everything is interconnected. At least I hope so. Now it’s time to explain to what point I have come now
I talked to my teacher and he said that this is a common demon tactic. As a result, no powers were given to me, but my own were presented to me as a gift for which I have to work. They give you a sense of strength and power, then push you through when it’s profitable. So that you reach for it again.
Throughout the entire time after that incident, I feel a demonic influence on me. Impulses, thoughts. The feeling of darkness inside and behind me. Today I finally decided to get rid of this and finally work with the angels, which I have been putting off for a long time. I called Raphael and Opfaal to clean me up. A process has begun and noticeable progress has been made. Suddenly they, their light disappeared. I felt a clear presence of something dark in the room. I asked, “Who are you?”. The answer was a simple “Demon”. I couldn’t find out his name and what he wanted from me. So I’m stumped. Simultaneously with his appearance, I sensed a succubus, who immediately got down to business. I forgot to mention that Lilith was an integral companion in my ascent path. She’s obviously not going to let me go. This is understandable to me, but who the other demon is, I have no idea, since I haven’t worked with anyone else. And apparently, she’s working together with this other demon to keep me in the Infernal Kingdom’s influence. I want to free myself from demonic influence and breathe freely. I will be glad if you can help me with advice on how to achieve this.
