Okay, so let’s put this first. I’m usually an ethical person, but not when it comes to my situation.
I don’t believe in rule of three or karma biting me.
I don’t just want to walk away and live my best life.
My situation in a nutshell and what I want to accomplish.
Mer this guy 9 years ago. Instant attraction. Instant relationship. A month into it, I was seeing red flags and found another woman. Was devastated. Called upon Pomba Gira and asked her to give him to me. Made her my Matron spirit permanently .
He stayed but twisted and so much misfortune and cheating over the years. Bound by blood and tears and crossroads magic and my own abusive past that created a trauma bond between us.
Instead of leaving I decided to stay. Contacted the other woman. We both confronted him. Ended up in a polyamory for a few months. That fell apart because she didn’t trust me and he was telling me he only wanted me. Played both of us. Broke up for two months and I met another guy that I really liked but didn’t get emotional attached just fwb for a month and then stayed platonic friends for years to present.
Me and her agreed to see him both.
We stayed like that for several years. Five years in, found him on dating site. Playing us both again. Confronted him. He blocked me across all boards
I moved on. He popped back up, told me he wanted another chance. Was solo. I gave that chance. Four years now. Last few months he’s been super sweet and super deep then out of nowhere gets mega jealous of the guy that’s just a friend and is telling me that he doesn’t ever want me to be driven back to him because I’m lonely… ![]()
Today I find out he’s been lying all over again. Pictures of a yearly event that he’s been to three years in a row and each year public domain photos of him with two women I know he’s friends with .
I’m so deeply soul tied to this man I cannot cut ties even with spells and petitioning my Matron. There’s more at play here and I have seen in dreams and messages that’s somehow our situation is meant to teach him some sort of karmic lesson. But what about me? I know I need to go but I literally cannot.
So.. what I want to figure out is how can I curse a man that I still am soul tied to despite all the bs he’s done to me and now I hate him too. I want him to remain with me until he’s nothing but a shell of himself and I want to secretly be the one who’s cursing him and causing his pain and misery and watching as he struggles, while he cries to me about his misery, but I want him to be blinded that it’s me doing it.
Yeah I want to be the evil bastard this time around. I feel I have good cause for it.