SORRY! I, somehow, missed this post. We surely do!
ENTRY #22
I’ve been mostly working with my legion lately. In the last couple of days, I decided that I wanted them to learn from heavy hitters. I sent them to learn from Satanachia and the next day, I reached her to ask permission. I know, it should have been the other way around.
Well, tonight I tried my first penny divination. I used the Knight’s tutorial for trance, sigil and enn to call her.
I had 9 (later 10) questions; three of them for control. Year, my age, that kind of thing, since I already knew the answer I thought it would be a good way to meassure if it was working. Surprisingly, it worked flawlessly.
But then the information wasn’t that cool. It seems Satanachia doesn’t want to teach my legion. And she doesn’t want me as a student, either. It’s kind of weird, I know I’m looking for an spiritual mentor.
I asked if she is going to help me more. She said yes. Then I asked another thing. I can’t say anything (not yet, at least), but it wasn’t cool. Not. At. All. Horrible, actually. And the worst part is that I can’t even begin to grasp why, nor a method to understand why. But I won’t go there.
A week or so ago I asked my legion to empower a little my chakras, just to see if I could feel anything. I’ve been feeling… something in my crown chakra. It doesn’t hurt, it doesn’t even distract me. Is just a sensation, right there, all the time.
Yesterday I did feel something during my meditation practice. In all the seven right points. I think it is working.
But the weirdest part came that same night, when I went to sleep. JUST the second I lay my head… I heard a bird chipping on my window, the the sound wasn’t anything like the birds that are around here. And it was JUST outside my window. “Fucking birds”, I said and had to sit down to locate where it came from. I tried to go to sleep and then I noticed there wasn’t ONE bird, but many. A few seconds later I could feel the chipping all around (but not in my window anymore). Funny thing? My legion has the shape of crows.
And one more thing: that night I heard (not imagine; HEARD) a woman’s laughter, just in my damn ear. It lasted a second, but it was there, I was able to actually hear it. And it was impossible to be someone laughing, since I was alone in my room.
Crazy, right?
I don’t know very well what’s happening. But it seems like progress to me.