I think I’m gonna be writing my progress here because I wanna share it with everyone.
September 14, 2021
This is the first time that I will be meditating in tribute for Lilith and because I wanted to connect with her. As I fell deeper into the trance in my meditation, I saw a gate in my mind, and also at this time my 3rd eye is also opened. It was a huge black gate without a lock, there were some words carved into the gate but unfortunately, I can’t understand what it is. The gate opens and I felt the pull to enter the gate, so I did enter.
There were many trees, it’s like a forest and yet the road was clear. As I walk forward the sight of a temple is drawing near and a statue of a lady, it was without a doubt Lilith. I arrived at the temple and entered through the entrance. There were paintings inside the temple and the temple itself was quite alluring.
I kept walking and finally arrived at the throne room, where Lilith sits on her throne. She looks at me as if she were expecting me. She stood up from her throne and approaches me.
Me: Huh? Is something wrong?
Lilith: Why are you here?
Me: Well, I wanted to connect with you
Lilith: For what reason?
For some reason, I can’t answer her and maybe I felt shy in telling her.
Lilith: Whatever reason it is, of course, you can.
Me: Thank you!
Lilith: However… You need to hone your senses before you come back.
Me: How do I do that?
Lilith: You already know how to do that, you just refuse to do it.
Then a very intense headache came over me and ‘she’ came.
Her: Hey Lilith! It’s been a while.
Lilith looks at her.
Lilith: I see, so you are the reason why he’s always drained.
Her: I can’t help it and besides he allows me to do so
Lilith: So it seems, it really has been a while. Why are you with him?
Her: It’s a matter of life and death.
Lilith: Ahhhh, you two are bounded?
Her: Yeah, but it’s not bad being a human. You should try it sometimes.
Lilith: I’m already past that. Anyway, why did you decide to show yourself?
Her: Connection. A deep one, with us.
Lilith: That’s possible…
Her: Then that’s all! See you soon.
The intense headache stopped.
Lilith: Come with me
Me: What’s with these connections she and you are talking about?
We walked into a room with a table carved with a sigil in the middle.
Lilith: Lay down
Me: Okay? What are you doing?
She didn’t answer and pulls a knife, it wasn’t an ordinary knife. She stabbed me in the chest and yet I can’t feel any pain at all. She cuts her finger and a drop of her blood drops into my wounded chest. I felt a surge of energy throughout me.
Lilith: Get up, it is finished.
I noticed that the wound that she gave me is now gone. All that is left is the table which is filled with blood.
Me: This is weird
Lilith: How is it weird?
Me: How can I know if this is all true and not a dream?
Lilith: Why don’t you try to move your physical body
I tried getting back in my physical body and I tried to move as she said, but something is restricting me and my body itself is heavy. Whenever I would try to force it, an unknown seal will appear in my mind and for some reason, I fear it.
Me: I can’t…
Lilith: Exactly, this isn’t a dream.
Me: Then while I’m here I would like to ask some questions!
Lilith: As long as I am allowed to answer it.
Me: How can I do a scan? The one where you can see spirits surrounding a person?
Lilith: You can’t do it yet, I suggest that you clear your mind first.
Me: But my mind is already clear.
Lilith: Corruption, grief, loneliness. You haven’t experienced these and yet your mind is full of them.
I bit my lip.
Lilith: Don’t let the past and the future worry you, let them go.
Me: Maybe… Soon.
Lilith: Do as you wish.
Me: Can I stay here for a while?
Lilith: Yes, however, I won’t be here.
Me: That’s okay.
Lilith: So be it.
She left the room and I spent some time in the room before getting back to the real world.
Me: Oh sheets, I forgot to thank her!
This is what happened on my first night, the ‘her’ that I’m talking about is what I cannot comprehend if she is a piece of my mind, an alter ego or a spirit. But she’s been with me for the past 4 years. I came to the conclusion that she’s an alter ego of mine.