Updates on the job front!
If you recall my earlier entry within this journal I petitioned Mammon to help me secure what we in Germany call a “Minijob”. I got invited for a talk but sadly because of my ambitions to start an apprenticeship this year they chose another candidat.
Well…
About a month after that I got more interested in Mammon. I read lots of articles and forum posts over at https://demonsanddemonolatry.com concerning him. Akelta (who is the admin of that site) shared her personal journey with him and while I was heavily put off by her description that he destroys your life in order to build it up better, I was truley desperate and considered pacting with him anyway.
In general Im not opposed to the idea of destroying what needs to be destroyed so that it can be built up again in a better way, but my recent life experiences through the last years were marked by a lot of destruction already and I finally want to not have everything be chaotic all the time. However, desperation (and maybe Mammons guidance) drew me to the idea of pacting.
I wrote up a “pact” but it wasnt a standard pact. I did not get the sense that Mammon wants anything specific in return except for my commitment and me working on stuff. I wrote up all the things Id like to have in my life in general terms. So for example instead of writing “I want X amount of money each month” I wrote that I want to have a successful and fulfilling carrer and other stuff like that.
Well…about 3-5 days after I signed that pact I get a message from the guy where I had applied.
It turns out that the candidate they had chosen instead of me had already quit. Which means that at the beginning of next month the position will be mine.
Obviously Im very very glad that that happened but Im also a little scared because I havent worked in a very long time, but Im eager to change that.
The sceptical part of me is of course trying to chalk it up to coincidence but thats actually not that easy this time considering that I did the pact just a few days before this happening. Also I made a promise to Mammon and the demons in general to tell people about them if they would help me so I consider this post a tribute to Mammon.
So far Im also not getting the sense that my life is being destroyed completely. In fact Im hoping that the destruction that already took place will carry me some more time and Im very glad for it working out that way thus far.
Praises be to Mammon!
Thank you Mammon for helping me secure this job, thank you for hearing me and thank you for standing at my side.
If anyone wants to learn about Mammon I cant recommend the site linked above enough. Akelta made several journal like entries describing her journey with him and its VERY insightful to say the least.
Also I would recommend checking out the threads on their forum about him, one in particular was very emotional and albeit chaotic I felt it gave a great sense of who Mammon is.
Thank you for reading.