In trying to keep true to my idea of highlighting both the progress and the nasty and shitty parts of becoming a magickian I make another entry here today, diverting the eyes of my readers to this thread I recently created. I dont want to rehash everything here which I said there but suffice to say that I was majorly frustrated at the path, the demons and logical inconsistencies I had and have to overcome. Im linking the thread here because I think frustrating parts of the path are often left out and youre often only presented with the positive aspects of it by more advanced practitioners (not always ofc), which is why I want to highlight it.
So if youre a beginner reading this and are frustrated all the time and think that this stuff only works for some people but not for you, feel free to take a look at that thread and know that you are not alone.
On a related note: when I had these frustrating “this shit isnt real anyway”-moments in the past I usually had to battle with it for a long time. Posting it here and getting to know perspectives from other members helped me greatly to reframe my approach and I think it was instrumental in getting me through this process quicker. In fact I do feel closer to the demons know after considering what has been posted in said thread.
This note is not only an encouragement to newer people to start asking their questions (because I know it can be intimidating, but people on these forums are inhumanely patient even after reading the same question 100 times…well, most of them are 
), but also a monument to the fact that things do improve.
When I had these frustrating phases in the past I would often quit magick for certain periods of time. Now instead of quitting I feel closer to it.
And again towards the newbie that may be reading this and now gets frustrated even more because it worked this way for me but not for them: know that I have had MANY, MANY iterations of these frustrating periods in the past. Just like you may be thinking right now, I also thought that “this only works for other people”, “I can never do this”, “gsofgndfiogndfh!!!”. Yep, been there. And Im far from having achieved anything of great significance from an objective standpoint. But I managed to keep my doubt in check, Im improving on multiple fronts and I finally feel a bit happy instead of pure frustration.
As far as I can tell its a long and insanely hard road, but so far I can say that its possible to improve.
Thank you for reading and enjoy your day! 