So I’ve been struggling for the majority of my life - extremely abusive parent, failing out of college, getting hooked on drugs, and ultimately leading to my current struggle of terrible health issues that are odd because I used to be active in soccer and cross country. I can’t get a job for my life atm as well. I have about 9 months before I’m kicked out of my home.
A year ago I would never even thought of spirits helping me and if heard someone was communicating with them I would’ve thought you were crazy. Yet here I am working on EA’s evocation course getting ready to call on demons.
I get this feeling sometimes that a lot of what I’ve faced in life has lead me to the occult and I just wanted to get you opinions on a few things.
Is there a reason that people like myself suffer? Like is there something that we need to learn in order to get out of constant struggle? Was some entity preparing me for the LHP or is that kind of thinking delusional?
Also did you have an entity or more you worked with on a daily/weekly basis that helped you rise out of your never ending cycle of suffering? I know that I can’t rely purely on spirits to do everything for me so I’ll be doing as much as I can to meet them halfway.
Sorry if these questions are stupid but I’ve come to realize that asking questions leads to better questions.