Black Magick of Ahriman Journal Entries

No. No “God” created them. They are Gods. Not “fallen angels”.

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Try the 9 gatekeepers i do i never ever experience anything threatening, if you want to know its more powerful mixing counter creation with the 9 gatekeepers its more powerful and it seems for me i am able to channel a very colossal and destructive force, giving me knowledge and power to open up Black holes at the speed of thought.

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Is it wise to mix various currents?

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I’ve been mixing currents for a long time now, doesn’t worry me.

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Bowling270, can you contact me via private message? You did not enable this option.

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If one is working with Hecate, would it be too unwise to overlap it with the Path of Smoke? If I decide to work with both should I absolutely keep them separate?

I am aware you worked with the Primal Craft current in the past. Hence my curiosity.

Best regards,
Ch

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Daang this thread is old but i will share my experiences on the path of smoke nonetheless.

This is how it begun; I had been quite a novice practitioner and for a while i had been dabbling in occult books (just like an other novice) for a while though i had had major but few spiritual experiences.

I had bought a book by Enoch petrucelly ‘‘The book of soul retrieval’’ and it is where i met the notion of removing chakras from my energy body. of course, this was quite a challenge to accept because it was hard for me to understand and even though i rejected it in the beginning whenever i went to watch YouTube videos i was suddenly bombarded by topics of removing chakras, unifying them etc. from Youtubers such as V.K Jehannum, E.A Koetting and later Kurtis Joseph. So at this point i was convinced that instead of removing the chakras i would darken and unify them. But did i know how?? Of course not…and for the next months i held myself back from working with Enochs book until i found some work that would help me in chakra work.

After a few months i noticed that i should maybe look into other paths because something did not feel right. In January the beginning of this year i was in my room with my brother at campus and i was just watching this YouTube video from Michael w ford:

When my brother heard it, he made fun of it because it sounded weird and i told him to respect the spirit but he said he was not afraid, god will protect him. After that we proceeded to sleep.

That night changed everything. My brother and i had the same dream. It was very gruesome. In my dream, i was in my house and there were some men who came into our house and they did not seem friendly. I proceeded to kill those men with my hands and i also used a knife. The scene was quite bloody.
In my brothers dream even stranger, he and i had killed 3 men in our house. I killed 2 and he killed one but i helped him. After that he asked me what i should do to the bodies and i told him that we need to cut them into pieces and place them in bags so that we are not caught. Surely, he watched in Anguish as i tore the mens bodies and cut all their body parts into small pieces as i directed him to help me put the body parts in bags.

My brother awoke from the dream the next morning but said nothing. Later in the afternoon i mentioned my dream to him (since i do usually) and he was shocked because of how similar they were. These were his words, ‘‘My dream felt so real, it was scary and i had the worst feeling ever…like is that how serial killers feel as they try and hide bodies? Bro, when i woke up the only picture in my head was that spirit you mentioned yesterday…what was his name…( i said Ahriman)…yeah that one. Shit bro.’’ My bro vowed never to mess with this spirit. He was scared shitless.

After that occurence things got even stranger. I started appearing in another of my acquaintances dreams. Her name was Hilda and she was an uptight Christian girl if i could describe her. She also came at me days later saying that she had dreams about me. As i looked at her, i could see the terror in her eyes as she explained to me what her dreams were like. ‘’ I was with my sister and i saw you coming from a far towards us holding a huge knife. You were looking at my sister and i could sense that you came for her. I tried to stop you, fight you, scream at you but nothing worked…it is as if you had this force, surrounding you, i cannot describe it but it was dark and out of this world.

I told her to give me more details of the dream but she refused because the dream was very traumatic to her. She continued to have other nightmares about me but refused to disclose them to me up to this day.

I started to question everything, why the fuck is this happening. Could it be Ahriman?? Why is all this crazy shit happening so fast and without control.

This really got me interested in the path even though i understood nothing about it. After days of contemplation and watching YouTube videos from Kurtis Joseph i was led to purchase black magick of Ahriman and to my surprise after I read this book and found a topic on Kunda Yoga my cries to find a LHP oriented chakra work was answered. To a very detailed degree that shocked me for days.

But after a while i became reluctant to begin this work due to fear. Later in the evening i asked Ahriman to give me some sort of sign that this work was meant for me. Later that evening after eating dinner from the cafeteria i was escorting my friend to her girls dorm and a big toad caught my uniquely attention. It was fucking huge and the first the popped into my mind was Ahriman because he was associated with the frog or rather the path itself is associated with it. I ended up seeing even more frogs as the days went by. This reassured me, but not to a higher degree.

I later begun performing only the ignition of the black sun at least everyday

My Corporeal experience
Days later something begun happening and it would be hard explaining it in words. But it was happening in my perception of the world, particularly by my corporeal experience. It occurred especially when i would go to eat in the cafeteria in my school college. I always felt a certain disconnection, like hating how we were being treated like children. It was as if all the students including myself were locked up in cage forced to go to class, eat, sleep repeat. I cannot describe it but it was always a kind of hateful feeling. As i headed to the dining hall, and watched other people head there too i looked at them with hatred and resentment. Trust me on this guys, it felt like an impulse, something that was not from my mind, it was a feeling. It came out by itself. I did not know what i was hateful about. This hatred felt different, it was as if it was hating the way i was living, the way people were living, especially when they were eating. It is so weird.

This reminded me of an experience i had when i invoked Satan a year ago (yeah, i don’t know why i did that as a novice). After undergoing a rather short but animalistic possession i started having a hatred towards people, not really them but rather how they were living, how they were content with their life. Anytime i would listen to them speak to me about their lives, i would feel like punching them in the face because there lives seemed so petty and passionless. I will not describe all my emotions but i felt the need to destroy them, even those close to me. I think it was Satan’s energy, i don’t know. And like the one before, this one was also an impulse, a kind of primal urge to do something and the best i could do was shake my head in hopes of eradicating the murderous thoughts that arised, especially when i held a kitchen knife. This lasted for a whole year but disappeared later.

Now concerning the path of smoke it was not only hatred towards people but rather hatred towards the world around me. I just just :tired_face: could not understand people. I could not understand why they were so content to live they way they were. I was hating everything in my path, the buildings, shops, classrooms, elevators, school, shops almost everything. This had an effect on me and i started turning away from the world. Over time as i continued performing the rite i was hating almost everything, especially music but understand that for me to hate something, something was always revealed to me. Eg. Like in the example of school, it was how we were treated like caged children, how we were being fed like babies, i felt like leaving the school to stay outside in my own apartment where i can cook for myself. I was craving independence from parental bodies.
Another one happened when i was in the school bus and i just could not continue listening to rap music because i was getting the impression that music usually encourages people to get obsessed with material things like sex, money, fame etc. just for the sake of having them. It was a distraction was the impression i got not that these things are bad. But rather as if they were useless or used uselessly, not serving my cause to ascend.
Guys i just hated everything i saw in my path, whether they were people, roads, cars, buildings, music and the only time i found solace is when i would walked in the african wildrness which was quiet and away from everyone. I felt better there with the wild animals, silent streams, scorching heat and strange silence and i could always sense that the wilderness was watching me. I even ended up finding a hill and an abandoned house where i planned that i could perform rituals in the future. When i was in the proximity of people i just had to adapt by shaking my head whenever the hateful emotions rose because it was making me hard to be with certain people.

My spiritual experience
Also during this time something amazing happened. I must remind you again that my astral senses were shit. I could not see shit (at least that is what i thought). One night for 2 hours i performed Kunda Yoga, peering into Drugaskan and then Becoming the black sun. My third eye vibrated intensely as i chanted the name of a certain div though i forgot the name and i was in a light trance. I proceeded to sleep after the meditation and during the night i woke up in the astral realm. I was in my bed and i decided to lift my arm and my arms were glowing like shiny stars. It was a very vivid astral experience.

After this experience, i slacked a little and lot of issues arised that attempted to slow down my progress in the path. For the last weeks i have had distractions try and sway me from performing the work in BMOA. Sometimes i feel that this path is not for me or i slack in meditation. Kurtis was right saying that the ignition of the black sun will bring its challenges and i am trying to deal with them as i speak.

But that did not stop me, i continued performing the ignition of the black sun and kunda yoga working with the energies of Aeshma. I have seen synchronicity leading me to see Aeshma everywhere though i feel i am not ready to work with him but i have decided maybe casting spell using kunda yoga using his energies will suffice for now.

This work, is amazing. It made my life seem so magickal and i really want to explore it its extremities.

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Dude!!! ROCK’ON!!!

Keep posting man!!!

You’re progress is awesome!!!

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Experience practicing peering into Drugaskan and this is my results;

I noticed that when i relax my gaze and perform the exercise as detailed, my vision gradually becomes darker and darker. Though in the beginning, it can be hard to maintain this but with thorough repetition your whole surrounding starts being consumed by darkness.
So i am like seated on my chair staring at the wall before me and i relax my gaze as i allow the darkness to unfold before my eyes. Slowly, the edge of my eyes start to blacken and this spread to my forward vision. My eyes are open but i cannot see the wall, i cannot see the chair, i cannot see the laptop but my eyes are open. Everything is pitch black. Mind you it was in the afternoon and there was plenty of light. I was able to do this for 10 seconds straight and i almost entered a trance because my perception was changing but i jolted back again. I am aiming to work on my other senses too including my smell, touch, hearing and shut them out at the same time with the exercise. Because they are acting as a distraction. When one performs this exercise they should fade out all their physical senses holistically. I will give my progress. My aim is to do it for 3 minutes (i thought it would be easy but men :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:, even 10seconds is quite long). I also want to know if it’s normal to get a small headache and pain in the eyes after doing this.

Live learn, repeat :smile:

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Yeah it normal in the beginning. But don’t worry about it. You’ll progress In no time.

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My personal trials of performing Ignition of the black sun
Trials of Self-Doubt

  1. Doubt in my psychic abilities
    Some days ago, i had decided to perform the rite called ‘‘Calling the Divs from Arezura’’ and yes, i can say it went really well. One prominent thing that happened is that when i was grounding the forces down to the earth i felt a lot of heat in my legs and feet. My feet were very heavy and felt as if they were drilled to the ground. Days later ( i did this the next day btw) weird shit was happening in my home. At around 2:00-3:00am my sister was awakened by what seemed to be someone scratching the walls in the house. Mind you nobody was awake at that time apart from her. I asked her if it were a cricket because they are prone to digs through floors but she said it was too loud and it sounded like someone was scratching the wall with some sort of metal. That was awkward. Of course, just like any neophyte i just shrugged this off even though i remember Kurtis saying that subtle transmutational effects would take place…i did not know what that really meant.
    Today morning, i had entered into a very light trance (actually, i was barely in one) and i think…MY THIRD EYE OPENED. Like i was shocked beyond my mind. Like my eyes were closed and i remember seeing shadows of darkness in my inner eye floating like water or smoke and through willpower i tried to see beyond the darkness and slowly they dispersed and i was able to see the ceiling of my room but only slightly. It was as if i was looking through a tunnel of smoke. Of course, anytime i would seize to relax the black smoke would cover my vision but anytime i relaxed and tried to keep my mind blank and just focussed on seeing the ceiling, the smoke was swrling yes but around the hole of the tunnel. As a result i could see. What shocked me the most is that i was very much awake. Like can you see the astral plane without being in a trance??? When i became too awake the swirls of darkness covered my inner eye again and i was not able to see the ceiling even after multiple attempts. I tried doing this again in the afternoon but to no prevail. I think i was not the right state of mind.
    Anyway, when a beginner experiences things such as this many questions come to the mind…Am i hallucinating (because i was not imagining things that for sure)? Am i doing it correctly? I started to have doubts over all my psychic exercises but i was able to stumble across a thread by a fellow practitioner who also desrcibed feeling hot feet when they grounded the forces. LMAO! like, i was doing it well.

  2. Doubt in my mind
    Another doubt that i have been experiencing is the dilemma between the path of smoke and the Qliphoth. You see, with me i have always had books for both paths that are centred towards personal alchemy. But like any baby spoilt for choice i was confused on which one to have, or even start with. I mean, even after having so many results in this path it is as if i had my doubts if i am ready for this path. So my dilemma here was quite silly, stupid even…I feel dumb mentioning it but here it comes…i was basically comparing the two paths based on their various realms of initiation. Like when i read about Arezura, i could not really grasp what it is and i knew i would only be able to do so through experience but the Qlipthoth was very direct. Each realm made sense to me in that, you know what was likely to happen if you initiate through it. I mean the Qliphoth had 11 realms for exploration while Arezura had 5. I was very confused because as i compared them, it was not even the number that was confusing me, but the whole initiations were very very different. I could not compare the two is what i am saying. They were not the same at all. But the dilemma was that i just needed to follow the path of smoke. I just had a huge predisposition towards it. I had lost almost all hope today because who would answer my dilemma?..but i decided to do a little more research and what i found ONLINE was shocking to say the least; Just read Kurtis Joseph thread
    Harnessing Qlippothic Powers
    :raised_hands:t6:
    Like guys, hands down…i have no words. Ever since i started diving circumstances and using my corporeal experiences as a tool for communication… all my answers are given to me in this plane. Through people, situations and thoughts as long as i am keen. My very world is like a dream. Every situation, every symbol is a means to learn. I ask a question, and it is provided. This has really motivated me and i will start incorporating sun gazing with the ignition of the black sun. I think my will to persist with the path, trying to dissect the knowledge and question everything is what has really strengthened my faith in this path. It seems like every little effort i make in this path is noticed and supported by the ancient ones. Live and learn men!!

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Awesome. Keep going dude!

BONUS KNOWLEDGE
Discovered why in the path of smoke, things like invocation do not exist.
You know when i first read the text what really intrigued was the whole thing about the Divs being a part of yourself. This is something i never found in most books. Of course i just skimmed through the book and i noticed that invocation does not really exist in this text. There is not a single place where i see anything dealing with calling a spirit externally to yourself. Everything from the evocations and reverse possession deal with awakening the Divs from within first and either communicating with it or enter its consciousness (as implied in reverse possession text).
So this really confused me in the beginning. Because i really wanted to perform a normal possession rite but something within told me no. It was very frustrating. So i read the book and wondered why the hell isn’t invocation done in this book. It is the only book that i currently have that does not have invocations. I mean Kurtis mentioned several times that the Divs are within but honestly the average joe cannot really understand that. And even if he does, would not mind working with a spirit like how most people do…i.e treating them as an external force.
So a few days ago i bumped into a video by a guy called goat scriptures on Youtube and there was one video where he deconstructs the dangers of invoking spirits. He talks about evocation, invocation and transvocation. I advise people to check his video out in case they are interested. But anyways, what i have discovered is that their is a good reason why the Divs or any spirit for that matter should be evoked and not invoked. Essentially to invoke a spirit is to supplicate yourself before it. Because essentially during the performance of that rite you are treating it as an external force in stead of one that is also within. Whereas during evocation you are declaring your own divine godhood and recognizing that the spirit is within the self so you are simply awakening it from the depths of self to stand before you in the magical circle. During reverse possession you are simply entering the consciousness that you yourself have awakened from the depths of self.
Now i am glad that i have a better understanding of why the Divs stress on the idea that they are within you.
If i ignored this shit, there is a high chance my life would be heading to a shithole :rofl:
Link to video : Evocation, Invocation, Transvocation 1, Why you do not want to Supplicate Gods and Spirits - YouTube

I just discovered this though so i am still learning, but if anyone has different thoughts please share.

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Kunda Yoga: Working with the energies of Aeshma

How the path of DeHak and DoMar intertwine

From my understanding, the path of DeHak is a path of alchemy. It is allowing the current to infest your life with its energies. In this path, you cannot live like a normal person. You know 9-5, get married, go to school, etc. The world of a normal person is that of stagnation, they are not really evolving. When you invite a current in your life, whether it is the draconian current, the smoke current or the Qliphothic current… you are inviting a force of becoming. Every ounce of stagnation in your reality will be destroyed to allow the current to flow smoothly. Once this happens, you cannot live like a normal person.

You will live the life of the devil because you are walking that path of the devil. Everything in your life will technically be demonic. From the moment you wake up, to the people you meet, to all of life’s circumstances…all of your thoughts will be that. You won’t need to perform love magic because the right people will be brought to your life. Instead of getting a drone hubris, you might get a lady or man that is interested in performing sex magic with you.

Just like Kurtis mentioned one time in his videos…all I see is darkness.

Something happened today. My brother had told me over dinner that my classmates’ father had passed on due to cancer. I was really sad for the guy you know. First Covid and then the guy just had to lose his dad. I reached to my phone and tried to call him but he did not pick up his phone. It had been 2 days since his father passed on and it was no wander he did not want to talk to anyone. For some reason, it was as if I could feel his pain. I realised, hey…I’m a sorcerer right? Why don’t I offer some help. So I rushed to my room and performed a ritual of healing with Astaroth. I was really devoted in my request, and I even cried for my friend. I had never really been that devoted in any ritual I had performed. I guess love can make you do amazing things.

Anyway after performing this rite that is when I realized that that is exactly how the path of DeHak is walked. You will learn what you need to learn and when the time is right, circumstances will bring themselves to you for you to apply what you were taught. It is not that you are seeking out these circumstances but that they will bring themselves to you when the time is right. Performing acts of sorcery alone without foresight might actually slow down your ascent.

And funny thing is that since you are always being in a constant state of becoming, every obstacle that you face is to prepare you for future obstacles. Not for the end because there is none. It is kind of like learning martial arts. You do not do it to just become a black belt. You do it to learn how to live like a warrior. When you go to the streets, you will be attacked but that does not mean that that will be the last fight of your life. Far from it, actually if you end up fighting with another person and had not experienced a first fight you might die in the next one and if you had not learnt martial arts at all you might have died in your first fight. So even in martial arts, it is the path itself that is the goal.

Remember that old series that was cancelled in 2016? called Damien [spoiler alert]. Yeah I watched it until the end. The anti-Christ tries to live a normal life but he cannot. Death follows him everywhere he goes. He cannot live like a normal person. He does not want to hurt anyone but unfortunately the circumstances in his life force him to use the powers of death. Like when he was being exorcised that is when he rose from his grave and stabbed the exorcist. Or when he was cornered by soldiers that is when he used his powers to defend himself by making the soldiers shoot each other. Sometimes he does not even have to do anything, people just die around him…especially those who piss him off. When people see him, they worship him and they don’t know why. They force themselves to be his slaves and kill for him, bring him offerings despite the fact that he hardly even knew those people. He’s life is hell on earth. I think, this series best describes how the path of DeHak and DoMar intertwined for me. That once the force is invited in your life, you cannot look back…you either flow with it and embrace its power or die. Circumstances to test your power will force themselves to the forefront of your life for you to deal with. You will not seek them out, they will seek you almost always violently.
Kunda Yoga spellcasting with Aighash
Divining circumstance
When i first encountered this term, it took long for me to even get around it because i had originally though that it just meant writing on a journal in a usual way. But, that was far from the truth. What i have come to know recently is that the physical world, the mental world and the spiritual world are one and the same. There is absolutely no difference because they are the same thing but just vary by density.
So then i asked myself. Chanting the 101 names of Angra Mainyu was meant to help you understand the language of the dream plane so how will divining circumstances make you understand the language of the world around me. I started to remember how in my African culture we often believed in various omens that bring themselves to our world. For example, in my culture if a wall gecko appears in your house it means that a visitor is soon to visit your house. Or if you place pig bones on your door, it will ward of bad spirits. Or if a certain bird kocks on your window, good luck is coming your way. As much as i thought that this was superstition, it tended to come true 100% of the time. Because i asked myself, the ancients believed in these occurrences all the time, could it be that they also noticed the synchronicites? That every time a certain animal visits them, the same results follow all the bloody time for decades.
So technically speaking, if i am dreaming…i am simply telling my own story and using object, images, colors and sounds to symbolize various things that are going on in my subconscious mind. Hence, in this world i can say that i am also telling my own story and using various omens that symbolize what is going on in my world.
Way back i did not notice this. I had initially requested Aighash to gift me with the ability to behold spirits but i got a different answer. He opened my third eye to be able to notice what is already around me because that was the first step. Slowly by slowly i was noticing too many synchronicities taking place in my world as if it were a dream. I remember taking a walk in wilderness with my dog and i met with two snakes which hurriedly slithered into holes the moment i passed by them. The snakes really caught my attention because one was very large and long. Even though i had paused from working with the energies of Aeshma, his presence was still rampant in my life and i noticed him everywhere. I went to YouTube, Satania released a channel called Aeshma sexual club, EA koetting just started a premier of Asmodeus etc. I was seeing him everywhere i went.
But is this all? No, because it does not end there. One thing i have been dealing with is an itchy rash on my right hand and i wondered why the hell it was refusing to heal for months. It could have been the fact that i probably got a fungal infection from cleaning the house every day without gloves on but who knows. Anyway this rash refused to go away and just yesterday i decided to google ‘‘itchy rash on right hand omen’’ and this is what i got
Itching fingers on the right hand - According to some superstitions, when the fingers are itching on the right hand, that is a good sign, and indicates that the person who is experiencing the itching will soon receive money.
Now i was having a lot of disbelief because as much as i was open to allow irrational concepts sometimes i had never been a superstitious person. But, dreams work in the same way. Every thing i experience is a message in my dream. So the same thing can be said about this place.
It is no wander why the ancients were so good in sorcery. They understood the language of ritual and that is why the idea of omens has existed across all cultures.

Days ago i had dreamt about something that would come to confirm this. I remember i was in some sort of apartment building. It looked like i was in a hospital but it was just a regular apartment. Suddenly i saw something appear before me. It was a grey-bluish dragon head with a snakes body. I was scared as fuck. It looked at me as if i were its prey and it remained still waiting for me to make any sudden movements. I did not think twice, i ran away and jumped out of the window and landed on the balcony. I proceeded to force myself up the windows and was able to climb to the top of the building. I think i was already on the top floor. The creature almost caught me but i managed to escape it claws. Suddenly i was no longer the young man who was running away from the snake but a bodiless figure that watched this man from above. I rewinded what had just happened. Right you heard me right, i rewinded what had just happened like a bloody film. All of a sudden i was not the bodiless figure but the young man again and i rewinded all of my actions until the snake and i were back at the apartment. All of a sudden i was not the young man anymore, i was the snake. I knew that this boy had escaped my claws and i had to catch him faster now. All of a sudden i was the bodiless figure in the sky that overlooked everything and i made the snake slither faster by fast forwarding the snakes movement independently from the entire dream so that it can catch the boy.

That dream was insane and when i woke up from it i realized that…i was that snake, i was that young man and i was that bodiless figure that controlled the whole dream and decided how it would unfold.

So i went into my journal and as i wrote things down i understood for a fact that it was i who was causing all of these things. Because like a dream, probably the bodiless figure is my supersoul that oversees all of my actions, the boy that run away was my own ego self and the creature…well, it probably was the devouring force of the Divs manifesting as a dragon. I have created the story and hence i am everything in the story. So the same thing can be said about this plane. I am the one who sent fungi to attack the skin of a young man, gave him a rash and told the young man that he will soon receive some financial gain. I am the one who gifted the man with vision to notice what was around him. I am the one who made him go through certain scenarios to come to this point in time. I am all of these things.
You see, i am yet to experience that state of being one with everything like i did in my dream but at least i have an idea of what it feels like and what i can expect as i ascend upon the path. It is absolute power, that is all i can say.

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Outstanding!!! Your journey is awesome. Embrace the God that you are.

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Ignition of the black sun
I few days ago i realized a very small but powerful significance of the rite. I was to share it but i think it is important for someone to realize it by themselves, to quote on quote connect the dots. It is one of the single most important rite in this book and as Zohak mentioned, not a mere preparatory work. Honestly speaking if one was to go about with the work in this book without knowing the purpose of this rite, they may have a hard time. In case you don’t know i ask that you meditate on its significance. I was almost shocked once i realized it.
Aighash
I also forgot in a funny way forgot about a certain experience i had, but you will see why later on. Many months ago while i was doing Kunda Yoga using Aighash energy, he appeared to me in a dream. I don’t recall how he looked like but i just remember he was walking in a bouncing fashion side by side with me on some sort of semi-arid region. He seemed really cool and i think i was mirroring his movements a bit :sweat_smile: It felt like we had talked for a long time. It felt like he was giving me advise on how to see the forces, though the only words i recall were this;

Continuously working with the energies of a spirit will eventually strengthen your connection to it

After hearing that some words crossed through my mind. VIBRATIONAL CONTAGION.

Of course this was an old word i saw a long time ago when i read ‘‘Belial without a master’’

I later confirmed this gnosis after comparing it with what Kurtis was told by Belial as written in ‘‘Belial without a master’’. I went through the section and i noticed that yes, working with the energies of a spirit does connect you with them very strongly. It makes your auric field vibrate in the same frequency and improves your astral awareness.
After realizing this i continued working with his energies via Kunda yoga and i started having numerous episodes of telepathy (which i did not directly ask for). I could just be simply sitting on the couch with my mum while watching TV and this strong words echos itself in my mind
‘‘SET THE TABLE!’’
which unconsciously forced me to start turning to the direction of where i thought the voice came from.
Mili-Seconds later my mum tells me with her physical voice to set dinner on the table. I started to experience a lot of this. Hearing a voice in my head and then seconds later the person says the exact words.
This has been a rather strange thing but it also opened my eyes to something;
THAT THAT is exactly how the Divs communicate with you. Through telepathy. That you should not really expect to hear them with physical ears. It is very distinct and i repeat, it does not come from you. You will know it because the moment you hear the voice in your head, your body will turn to the direction from where you think it is coming from. Very weird.
What is very interesting is that i did not realize this insight before and i decided to just brush it off as coincidence. This gift disappeared later on and the only time i realized its’ significance is when i was writing this today :sweat_smile: So if hearing spirits is hard for anyone it would be wise to ask for telepathic abilities (which i will :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:)
CONCLUSION
The Divs sometimes do things in a very round-about way, but it has a kind of boomerang effect. At times, it seems they go in one direction, off the beaten path, but that is merely our perspective of it. We find out later—after we have grown in wisdom and understanding—that they have been following their plan all along. We are the ones who have not kept up. Man’s perspective versus God’s.
Another reason why having journal is very important.

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Itchy Rash on Hands (many months later)
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I don’t want to bore you with the story but the picture above is the end result. I don’t know guys, coincidence or an omen…you be the judge.

Your damnation begins tonight

Many months ago, a change and shift was happening in my life. During this time, I had performed the ignition of the black sun one last time and that very night I had a strange dream. In this dream I found myself walking my dog. I passed by a very large castle/temple that was filled with the strangest looking creatures that did not exist in earth. The only animal that I could notice was a lion. We walked into the castle building and I passed by an ancient looking tribe who were chocolate skinned. They felt very old and ancient these people, and also spiritually powerful. In the dream i guessed that maybe they were the Annunaki human children. These people seemed very busy and it was as if they were entering a temple for prayers. Then there was a man who wore blue clothes who looked at me, with an almost serious look. I had asked him to teach me his ways but he just looked at me. He called a young boy and talked to him in a language I could not understand. The man then proceeded to go inside the temple. The boy then came to me and proceeded to guide me outside the temple. As he did this he started to sing a very beautiful song. He was very kind to me.

As we walked outside, I saw the boy turn backwards and when I also did the same, I saw a woman seated at a rock. This apparently, was the boys mother. Technically, it seems like she was the mother of everyone there despite looking very young. She started to speak and for some reason, I do not know where this thought came from but it seemed as if I was impressed that she was not married. She told me she had no need to marry and that for that to happen she had to invoke a certain goddess. After she said these words her form begun to change. She was no longer the beautiful woman but the goddess. She removed her head from her body and placed it on the rock. Her eyes became pitch black, all her teeth became very sharp, her skin became pale white and was chapped and dry so badly it peeled. The ambience of the environment changed and became dark, surreal, greenish and necrotic. I asked her what her name was for at the first attempt but I could not hear anything. I got scared and wanted to run away but It was at this moment that I became lucid and since i realized i was dreaming I had gathered the courage to approach her. I took hold of her head and it appeared as if she was whispering some chants (holding a talking head felt weird as fuck). I asked her what her name was again but I just heard whispers. I did not hear the beginning of her name only the end which sounded like;

….sestesla (if someone knows who this goddess is, kindly tell me)

I tried to get her to repeat but I could not hear jack despite that her mouth and sharp teeth were just close to my ears. She just whispered in a raspy hissy voice.

The next words she told me were much more clear but scared me a bit.

‘‘ When I found you. When I found you. When I found you. You will find yourself in damnation tonight.’’

I looked at her as she told me this and it was at that moment that I woke up from the dream. Many months passed during which I was being led to a different path in my life. I had stopped using the works of different books including BMOA (this may be my last journal entry) and I was making plans and plotting out my own journey and goals. My immediate environment was also encouraging this, as I saw numerous occultists encouraging viewers to follow their own path. It was also during this time that I found out who my patron demon is since it is something I sought out. Also since I learnt about synchronicities in the path of smoke, I am working hand in hand with my higher self on a daily basis and he guides me. I rarely if ever, have to literally sit down and ask…I just merely have to yearn for something with the feeling of needing some sort of guidance or answer then I would either receive it through either dreams or omens in my daily life.

The Qliphoth

Another dream

Although this is not directly tied to the path of smoke, i felt the need to just include it since it may have been a sign on my path of damnation. Also, its’ lessons may be applicable to any path from my point of view. But i do not know. Anyway, just a few days ago, I remember in the dream I was in some sort of forest. In this forest, there was this one huge tree. At the bottom trunk of the tree there was a dark and deep pit. I will never forget how it looked like because it was very black and it somehow looked like black smoke was creeping out of it coming to the surface.

As i got closer to the pit, I see this young lady squatting butt naked just above the black pit. I went even much closer I could see the black shadows pleasuring her at the genitalia as she gazed at the sky with an orgasmic smile. I tried to talk to her but to no avail, it was as if I did not exist as she continued staring at the sky. Then surprisingly, I saw a group of young children, probably the age of 4 or something jumping butt naked into the dark pit doing cannon balls or sliding in as if it were just a swimming pool. They were laughing with joy and excitement as they jumped in. Once they jumped in though they would disappear into the darkness. I then went slightly closer to the pit to inspect it and it was at that moment that I became slightly lucid. The pit did not feel empty. It felt like within that pit was an infinite universe with many dark worlds. I felt the urge to jump in like the children but something, a deep fear forced me not to. I was honestly at the cross roads because although the pit felt alien to me, I was not really scared about the darkness. The only fear I had is that if I were to jump into the pit, I would get lost forever. I was lucid, so I am sure you can understand how real this fear was. After thinking about it for a while, I felt that I would lose myself in there, die in my sleep and never wake up or if i do wake up i was going to wake up not me and probably go insane. The fear was too strong so I walked away from the tree backwards. As I gazed at the tree from a distant, all of a sudden a man who appeared to be a direct replica of myself stood at my side. He was slightly taller and appeared wiser. I asked this man what this was. He then told me;

This…is the Qliphoth. You will initiate through it again and again.

After hearing that statement we both stared at the dark pit at the bottom of the tree. More children continued to jump in and the naked lady was still being pleasured there.

As I gazed into the dark pit, a vision appeared of a green creature moving and dancing around. I cannot explain how this creature looked like because even though it had humanoid features such as limbs, nothing about its appearance had any resemblance to any creature on earth. Then a name appeared below the green creature.

‘‘NIANTIEL’’

And below that name was

‘‘Daath/ Death’’ (I honestly cannot remember which it was)

The dream ended at this point and I woke up. This dream is obviously self-explanatory, and I guessed that the woman may have been Naamah. Because, her name literally means pleasure. Apart from that she is the black earth/ Malkuth if we are to consider the corresponding sephira, which is the earth itself hence why she was above the dark pit. I think the only reason i could see her is because she was a bridge between the two worlds. Of course, Naamah is also the gate to the Qliphoth. I do not know what the children represent though, but I felt as if they were demons so I don’t know.

You know just to comment on this; It is very common to see the qliphoth being romanticized today. In the beginning when i knew very little about the qliphoth, i would always think that godhood is handed on a silver plate and this may have been so because of the way many occultists have marketed it. That all you have to do is buy a book, get a few tools here and there, chant some names and voila you would become a god. But, honestly speaking when i was at that pit gazing at the hole nothing could be further from the truth. The feeling of losing yourself/dying, that is what i remember the most. The death, is not even physical…it felt like a deeper kind of death where the entire you is gone i.e. your ego. Before i used to wonder why many adepts failed to cross the abyss. Being there, at that moment knowing that by jumping in that you would literally die…assured me that it ain’t a walk in the park. It is a real threat to the egoic mind.
I was at a crossroad because technically speaking, you have to take a leap of faith and just dive in like those small children. No amount of thinking will help you. No amount of advise will prepare you. Only you can make that choice.
Even though it has scared me, i now understand the seriousness of magick, and what to expect in my path. Because once you start, you have to finish otherwise that stagnation will devour you. A part from that, it is a never ending cycle and you can never truly…be done :sweat_smile: It is an eye opener and it is only by being there at that moment that you can experience it for yourself. It is also a choice, so that before you even start this process, you know exactly what you are getting yourself into and what you have to sacrifice to become a god.
I know eventually a time will come when i will actually have to dive in. This time however, i will just do as the children did and cannonball into the abyss :joy: and just like them, become a babe of the abyss. I hope those who are yet to experience this, will also do the same.

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Kurtis sorry to ask but Lucifer is the one who initiate me on LHP wich is a fallen angel so i wanted to work with Ahriman too but i don’t want any punish from Lucifer for work with Ahriman or punish with Ahriman for work with Lucifer so it’s safe start the path of smoke for me??

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Sorry @Jin2494 but Kurtis isn’t on this platform anymore. Maybe you can reach out to him about your question on his other channels?

I am closing this journal, as the owner isn’t here anymore and can’t respond to questions etc. :slight_smile:

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