Binding The Goetia Journal

Journals, Group Rituals & Free Readings
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Thusly as followed, I feel now is the time for me to bind the 72 Goetia. I have not started from Bael though.

Since I now own a copy of the lesser key of Solomon, I am binding the entities to the book itself.
I have started with King Paimon considering I have been called toward him to start off with. It went off without a hitch.

I started off lighting incense and doing the bornless one ritual and then the invocation. Our conversation was not about anything external but rather, the internal side of me. King Paimon is the representation of my ambition. I asked thusly, why have I lost my ambition and got my answer.

The reason I felt called to binding him first was because all those years ago, I never finished the operation. I gave the license to depart but I didn’t say where and didn’t bind his energy to my own and thusly, he was allowed to roam free as opposed to return back to the source.

Why was my ambition lost? It is as so: I never lost my ambition, I was blinded by my ambition and like with not finishing the operation, I would never see my ambitions through. I was perfectly fine cruising along life and saying “the universe will guide me” as opposed to, “I will guide me”.

I was consistently looking for signs from the universe and kind of expecting a hand out. In a way, my ambitions became more about taking “the easy way out” instead of working for what would essentially be my “throne” so to speak.

I will update this thread as I go along but for now, Paimon is now part of me again.

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May I ask, have you received the Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel before embarking upon this operation?

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That is essentially what The Bornless One ritual was to me. Yes, I was using the names found in the lesser key for the various names of God/The Universe. Reading through my copy made no mention of the knowledge and conversation of the holy guardian angel.

Unless of course, you mean the first operation. In the first operation for me, I was young, foolish even and evoked him purely because I wasn’t getting answers from any of the other spirits I worked with. The first operation involved me drawing his sigil(which I reused) and staring deeply into it until it appeared as if it was floating off the paper while chanting his enn.

I didn’t even use the proper license to depart back in those days. Back then when I would call on the spirits, I would commune with them, receive the communication that I wanted and simply gesture to me, and to them and say “go in peace”.

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The Bornless ritual has been used to make contact with the HGA in modern ceremonial magick (mainly due to Crowley’s rewriting of the original exorcism) but the operation itself originates with the Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage. The final part of the Abramelin operation, also known as the Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel, involves binding the spirits of the Goetia so I was curious if you had done that.

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I was using my interpretation of “the brass vessel” that was mentioned at the license to depart. Which says that you may command the spirits into the vessel in the same manner that you would for the triangle with “that thou dost forthwith appear before this circle, in this vessel of brass, in a fair and comely shape”.

My brass vessel, in this case, is the book itself

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If I’m understanding correctly, you didn’t do the Abramelin operation and receive the K & C of the HGA. Your binding is something different. Thanks for clarifying.

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No worries :sweat_smile: . It has actually been some time since I’ve frequented this forum. Last time I was fairly active here, a lot of people suggested to me that you don’t need to bind the spirits which to each their own.

To me, binding is essentially a redirection of energy, transforming the negative energy that is in yourself, into something positive.

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The author Jason Miller thought the same until his HGA literally told him he had to. In his book Consorting with Spirits, Miller described the HGA asking him what weapon he was going to use for the binding and his response was, “Well, I don’t believe in the dichotomy so I’m not going to do it,” and the angel replied wth, “It’s not a matter of belief, Jason. If you don’t do it, your life will go to shit.” Later, he was basically dragged to the exact weapon he needed for the operation lol

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I have noticed this in my own life throughout my young adult years. I’m 24, turning 25 now. Upon my first contact with Asmodeus for instance, there was nothing about my “life going to shit” at least, not at the time but two years later, I would see what effect not binding and completing the operation would have on me.

I would end up getting with my ex and thinking “nothing could ever go wrong” and seven months later, she cheated on me and later on, after coming to terms with it, I realised she was only using me for sexual gratification.

I also couldn’t tell you which spirit it was as many of them seem to have “aauthority over past, present and things to come” but toward the end of that relationship, I had a sinking feeling and a voice in my head that was not my own telling me “we should break up” and it scared me because I didn’t want to lose what I thought was a good thing going. Next thing you know, a month after hearing that in my head, it happened and she broke up with me and got together with the person she cheated on me with

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Thing is I’m pretty sure he also warned me what would happen.

That was in 2019 from one of my old thread on “is this a calling” because I kept hearing “Asmodeus I invoke you” in my head

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Update: After binding, I’ve noticed something strange. I’m a smoker/vaper and heavily dependent on nicotine. Now, everytime I try to take a puff, there is little to no taste. The Vape is charged so its not like because of low battery, there is lower wattage on the coil. Its as if I literally cannot taste it.

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Holy shit. I just realised something after binding Paimon. First, I can now see a kind of tether between me and the book itself, as if I can see where I have placed the book through the walls while I was showering.

Second, I have been called to bind Shax. If Paimon is the aspect of my mind that is my ambition and his own words, me being blinded by my ambition, Shax is the little voice in my head that lies to me. The one who tells me, “You’ll never become a director, you’ll never finish your screenplay, etc etc.” Because he is the one who lies unless commanded into the triangle to speak the truth. Shax, is the one who blinds my ambitions. That is what he is.

He takes my sight away from my goals, and my understanding of achieving those goals. Thusly by binding him to the book, as he “takes away a mans hearing”, that voice in my head that tells me I’m not good enough becomes deafened allowing me to hear the truth.

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Tonight, I will be binding Shax. This one will not be as easy as it was for Paimon. This much I know, not just as a result of the lesser key saying he must be forced into the triangle but at the same time, if Shax is the representation of the lies I tell myself, am I really ready to confront those lies?

Will I be ready and willing to confront this aspect of myself? The one who muddies up my self-confidence? And if so, when the operation is complete, with Shax being seen afterwards as one who is loyal to the exorcist, will I be able to be “Loyal” to myself and silence the parts that tell me I’m never enough? Will I be able to silence the lies I tell myself both for “I’ll never get my dream job, I’ll never get this etc etc” and the lies I tell myself of “this isn’t real. I didn’t really bind Paimon and I won’t be able to bind all these aspects of the self”.

I will post an update when it is done. Beforehand with preparations, I will meditate and focus on the core of the issue before performing the bornless one ritual and likewise commanding the spirit.

I feel for this one, I will have to use “the Greater chain/curse” to tell this aspect of myself, “I am not going to let you consume my life. I refuse to live a life of doubt. I choose to be open to all things physical and metaphysical.”

Even before I summon him, I can see him in my minds eye. The Stork that has consumed my life with lies. The one who makes me not understand both the occult and also the one who has made me not understand that sometimes, friendship is all there is and that despite what you think, there could never be more to it.

In my past dealings with Shax, I had always refused to either summon or work with him. I attributed him to many of the aspects of my life that were happening at the time. I was more scared of him than any of the other goetia.

When he appeared before me in my mind at 17/18, my “binding” of him if you can even call him that was not a redirection of this energy. Instead, what I did was push him farther and farther into my subconscious, that way I would never once have to think about him or losing my “sight”.

I sort of called him deep into my inner temple and bound him there but with nowhere for that energy to go, it would only strengthen.

I suppose again, by further pushing him deeper into the subconscious, I lost sight of my spirituality, goals, achievements and all that which was right in front of me.

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I am still in the process of setting up. In my meditation, I focused entirely on why I lie to myself. The reality of the answer is simple:

I lie to myself because I try so hard to make things perfect. I want perfection. As a result of this, I tell myself, that none of my works be it spiritual, creative or physical will ever be good enough. That I consistently compare myself to others is another big aspect of my self-deceit. I tell myself, “I’ll never achieve what they’ve achieved” and as a result lose myself.

As for the energy of Shax, even before I summon the marquis, it is quite intense. It feels more intense than Paimon’s energy. Maybe its because I stopped repressing Paimon many years ago that his energy is different to Shax’s.

the energy of Shax feels stern, angry even as if this part of me is looking through my eyes and refuses to be accepted into my own being. I had been pondering and thinking on Shax’s energy for some time and it reminds me of “want you gone” in Portal 2.

The Lyrics are like a duet. And Again, I have not conjured or summoned him yet

Shax: Well here we are again
Me: It’s always such a pleasure
Me:Remember when you tried to kill me twice?
Shax:Oh how we laughed and laughed
Me:Except I wasn’t laughing
Me:Under the circumstances I’ve been shockingly nice

Shax:You want your freedom? Take it
Me:That’s what I’m counting on
Me:I used to want you dead but now I only want you gone

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It is done. He is bound. I only needed to use the greater chain once before hearing him submit. The voice was no longer hoarse but one of subservience. After binding, I could hear him say upon my request of saying, “silence the voice in my head that lies, silence the voice that compares me to others, silence the self-doubt”, he said “it shall be done my lord”.

And now I can feel pressure in my temple/third eye. I hear laughter in my head but not from Shax. Shax himself has said “it is your own laughter, my lord” but now my energy is intense and I can feel it in the solar plexus.

The voice of self-doubt is not entirely away and it never will be but it can be silenced…By laughter! Laugh at my mistakes and try again! Laugh at what I compare myself to, instead of "I’ll never achieve what they’ve achieved, laugh at it. Laugh at yourself and your comparison to others because it’s so ridiculous to compare yourself to someone else! You’re you, You’re not someone else. And if you’re stuck on what you write laugh at what you’re stuck on and tell yourself, “It’s ridiculous to not at least try!”

Laughter is the opposite of fear. Joy is the opposite of doubt. Take joy in what you do instead of comparing yourself to others! Holy shit! It worked! The binding worked! I don’t doubt in it anymore!

The tether to the book has also increased in size. Not by much but it has increased. the tether is like spider silk that is a hairs length in diameter and its increased ever since.

Was this what I lost all along? My spark? My joy? Was I just going through the motions and lost all that which motivated me? Even now, his energy has shifted. Its not, angry. It’s subservient.

Holy shit, with his binding, I feel less of a pressure on my body.

Like I said, the energy I felt binding him to my being after being repressed for so long is…freedom. I feel more free now than I’ve ever been. That energy has been changed and now, its someone elses problem. In that sense I mean after the departure, in the collective unconscious, its someone else’s turn to bind Shax to their being.

I can also accept that somethings that are lost, cannot ever be found again. At least, not in the same way. For instance, if you lose your friendships, maybe you can find new friendships. If you’ve lost a partner, instead of consistently trying to get back together with them and find them again, you can find a new partner.

You can learn from what you’ve lost! Only when you’ve learnt from what you’ve lost can you hope to find it again! It may not be the same but it will be better in the long run!

I can sleep easier now without fear that it didn’t work.

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And now, instead of “Want you gone” to represent Shax pre-binding,

After binding him its “Still alive”
Instead of the lines, “I used to want you dead but now I only want you gone” its now

“This was a triumph.
I’m making a note here: HUGE SUCCESS.
It’s hard to overstate my satisfaction.” and also

“But there’s no sense crying over every mistake.
You just keep on trying till you run out of cake.”

It’s even reflected in the lines, “I’m not even angry” because prior to binding his energy was one of anger and sterness.

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He also no longer appears as the stork in my minds eye. He appears more like this now.

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It’s the lines from Iroh. “When you first met him, you were frightened but does he seem scary to you now?”

These voices in my head, the doubt and comparisons, I was terrified which lead me to thinking I’ll never be good enough but through confronting these parts of my being, they’re not so scary to me now. Instead, they are a part of me. I accept that it’s part of me but I will not let it control me.

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It is also now as if a small part of the weight crushing my shoulders, is dissapearing

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I have now learned what Shax’s portion of my mind is. It’s awareness. Through binding him, and through him unlocking that portion of my mind I have become more aware of my actions. More aware of my thoughts. More aware of my perceived doubt but now there is a new issue.

What are the lies we tell ourselves governed by? What is our self-doubt governed by? Hatred. Hatred and fear. Fear is what causes hatred. Hatred of the self. Why then, am I angry at myself? Why then am I angry at doubting myself?

Because of self-hatred. Why then do I hate myself? Multitude of reasons. The biggest of which is I hate myself for allowing my ex to do what she did to me. This hatred, the only way I could confront or rather repress the emotion was through laughter. When Shax said, “it is your own laughter my lord.” he was not wrong.

but it wasn’t the conscious me. It was Glaysa-Labolas! As I said, after my ex did what she did to me, I didn’t know how to deal with the hatred and anger I felt both at myself and at her. Therefore, I would go into an uncontrollable fit of laughter while telling myself, “she doesn’t care about me. She doesn’t care if I live or die.”

Now with Labolas himself. He is losely bound. In the dealing I had with him, he chose to reside in the Skull I had on my altar. I call this a lose binding because I allowed that aspect of myself to stay there for as long as he wanted. Little did I know yet again, because it wasn’t a proper binding, the energy still had no place to go.

I will be binding him tomorrow. For now, I will be preparing. Meditating and focusing my attention on my own self-hatred. Letting go of the fear associated with anger and hatred and then doing the rituals all over again.

While I am aware of my doubts and lies I tell myself, it is now time to confront the source of the anger behind those doubts and those fears as well as the anger.

Energywise, Labolas is represented to me by the album “Pretty Little Hate Machine” by Nine Inch Nails.

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