I agree Dron, you’ll need to learn to focus your attention.
A wise man once said, “The novice must hide in the monastery to achieve balance, but the master brings the monastery with him wherever he goes.”
[quote=“ashtkerr, post:61, topic:7620”]I agree Dron, you’ll need to learn to focus your attention.
A wise man once said, “The novice must hide in the monastery to achieve balance, but the master brings the monastery with him wherever he goes.”[/quote]
Damn I like that quote
reminds me of the story of when a skinwalker knocked on my great grandparents hogan. My great grandpa shot it with a shotgun after it knocked on the front door(it cursed at least 1 person with illness) and the blood trail he followed in the morning didn’t end with a human wearing animal hide corpse as he would expect. It led to nothing
the first think i asked him when he made his presence known to me was’‘can you bring me money’'?
This thing whatever it is,it’s not usable
I’ve tried that and it’s pissing it off.He wants desperately my attention and he bangs louder when i’m distracted with something else.The problem is that it’s not leaving.
I have no emotional reactions with it anymore and i want to believe me.And that’s because it become a part of my everyday routine.No matter my emotional state or how calm i can be,it’s always there,doing his own things.
I feel like just ignoring it,shows that i have no problem to stick with it forever.
[quote=“ashtkerr, post:61, topic:7620”]I agree Dron, you’ll need to learn to focus your attention.
A wise man once said, “The novice must hide in the monastery to achieve balance, but the master brings the monastery with him wherever he goes.”[/quote]
It’s not working.No mater where my attention is it’s always doing this thing.Even if a press play on a porn tube(nothing better to focus attention on)it continues to bang things inside my room.
The purpose of this thing is to drive you insane. So far, I gather by your comments, it’s doing a good job.
I don’t believe that it is present away from your presence, in other words you’re manifesting it directly. The various workings against it don’t work because you’re convincing yourself that they won’t work or you don’t want them to work (in your subconscious will).
Ignoring it won’t do nothing either, because your consciousness is constantly aware of it in synchronization with its energy, no matter were you turn your focus.
You need to work on yourself instead. Work on shifting your awareness. Tap into your subconscious and eradicate this thing there, by creating a new paradigm. Do this just before you fall asleep and close every session with a no-recollection affirmation of the working itself. The thing won’t go away in one go, it might take a few days to a few weeks depending on how strongly cemented the supporting belief is. But it’ll go away if you’re consistent.
Also I would suggest to remove yourself from this thread. As you have created a strong affirmation here that is supporting the manifestation.
[quote=“Zeus, post:68, topic:7620”]The purpose of this thing is to drive you insane. So far, I gather by your comments, it’s doing a good job.
I don’t believe that it is present away from your presence, in other words you’re manifesting it directly. The various workings against it don’t work because you’re convincing yourself that they won’t work or you don’t want them to work (in your subconscious will).
Ignoring it won’t do nothing either, because your consciousness is constantly aware of it in synchronization with its energy, no matter were you turn your focus.
You need to work on yourself instead. Work on shifting your awareness. Tap into your subconscious and eradicate this thing there, by creating a new paradigm. Do this just before you fall asleep and close every session with a no-recollection affirmation of the working itself. The thing won’t go away in one go, it might take a few days to a few weeks depending on how strongly cemented the supporting belief is. But it’ll go away if you’re consistent.
Also I would suggest to remove yourself from this thread. As you have created a strong affirmation here that is supporting the manifestation.[/quote]
I can’t be sure for anything anymore.If this thing comes from me i think it’s preaty easy to stop it by just invoking an angelic force.
The problem is that i feel a presence around my head,tingles in my hair and sometimes in my legs…I feel like this thing using gates unknown to me and he gets me anytime he wants…
Once again i can’t be sure but this is what i feel…
Yeah if all this is accurate sounds like you might have a high roller entity hanging around you, regular mehtods don’t work on stronger entitys and at best just irritate them. Some ancestor spirits can be really strong so I suppose we can’t rule that out. But if it as strong as it sounds like it is it might want something from you or want you to do something. Have you tried looking into that?
[quote=“dron, post:66, topic:7620”]I have no emotional reactions with it anymore and i want to believe me.And that’s because it become a part of my everyday routine.No matter my emotional state or how calm i can be,it’s always there,doing his own things.
I feel like just ignoring it,shows that i have no problem to stick with it forever.[/quote]
I think you have the right attitude here. Just like with people we may not be able to control how they act but we can control how we react.
Perhaps in time the entity will let its intentions be known.
Yes i’ve tried many times to ask his name and what he wants from me and all i get is a knock.It responds to my thoughts with knocks.I even tried to tell it’‘one knock for yes and two knocks for no’’
Then i was asking questions,but nothing again.It was doing it’s own things.
[quote=“Paulden, post:71, topic:7620”][quote=“dron, post:66, topic:7620”]I have no emotional reactions with it anymore and i want to believe me.And that’s because it become a part of my everyday routine.No matter my emotional state or how calm i can be,it’s always there,doing his own things.
I feel like just ignoring it,shows that i have no problem to stick with it forever.[/quote]
I think you have the right attitude here. Just like with people we may not be able to control how they act but we can control how we react.
Perhaps in time the entity will let its intentions be known.[/quote]
And what if ignoring it is the wrong way to go?I mean who can guarantee that it will leave only by ignoring it?
One other thing for those who’re sending me pms trying to help:
Thank you all very much.I don’t like drama and stuff like that but this is something that i have to do,and i don’t know how to do it.It really sucks to fight a battle without knowing what you’re facing and what you have to do.
Thank you all
You haven’t posted stuff like this before, anyone accusing you of forum drama may mean well in their way but it is, in my opinion (as someone who’s read nearly every post on this forum - some, twice) not an issue of you being out of line here.
If we can post honest successes, why the hostility towards someone posting problems?
For people like us, trying to get our hands in “God’s toolbox,” they’re just both sides of the same coin. Sometimes the bear gets you.
I think a little more honesty about magick not always being a field of roses would be a good thing, I have the utmost respect for E.A. talking about difficult times he’s had (the Azi Dahaka video is probably what made me really LIKE his stuff, as opposed to just be interested) and I’ve tried to own my own imperfections, posted sometimes about failures and the things I’m crap at… it ain’t all Harry Potter! 
[quote=“Lady Eva, post:75, topic:7620”]You haven’t posted stuff like this before, anyone accusing you of forum drama may mean well in their way but it is, in my opinion (as someone who’s read nearly every post on this forum - some, twice) not an issue of you being out of line here.
If we can post honest successes, why the hostility towards someone posting problems?
For people like us, trying to get our hands in “God’s toolbox,” they’re just both sides of the same coin. Sometimes the bear gets you.
I think a little more honesty about magick not always being a field of roses would be a good thing, I have the utmost respect for E.A. talking about difficult times he’s had (the Azi Dahaka video is probably what made me really LIKE his stuff, as opposed to just be interested) and I’ve tried to own my own imperfections, posted sometimes about failures and the things I’m crap at… it ain’t all Harry Potter! :)[/quote]
I know.I was enjoying my ride with no problems,trying to study practice and learn everything i can in order to reach the stage i wanted,and this stuff kicks in and ruins everything.
I know i went a little mad,but i ensure everyone it’s not so easy to be haunted.
I ran into a poltergeist like entity at a haunted hotel I used to work at, I would feel angry and depleted of energy. It also attached itself to people and I felt it try to get me to open myself to it. Thats not to say its a brainless energy sucker, at one point I was projecting how much I hated the job and wanted to leave soon and time skiped an hour on me when I went downstairs. I’m going back today as a guest at an expo held there, it may be my last time to understand it. Though I know I don’t like how it makes me feel.
would you consider yourself "right hand path’? When I mentioned the wand blaster thing earlier I was not saying you literally have a wand your using in the name of god, rather the phenomena that people feel the need to direct righteous energy towards something that isn’t complying to their will instead of seeking to understand it. These bothersome occurrences don’t seem to be negatively affecting your life, like depleting your energy or attaching itself to you personally - just the things around you. Perhaps it deserves to be understood if it is that powerful to linger against you will. Does it really feel like an enemy?
Yes i’ve tried many times to ask his name and what he wants from me and all i get is a knock.It responds to my thoughts with knocks.I even tried to tell it’‘one knock for yes and two knocks for no’’
Then i was asking questions,but nothing again.It was doing it’s own things.[/quote]
What if its morse code? Perhaps it IS trying to communicate with you. It seems very persistent, like its an alarm of some sort, if you will.
But, if you can allow yourself, approach this with less tension and stress…rigidity is one of the greatest breakers of concentration and spiritual focus and just being able to “do”. If you are like a rock, instead of a sponge, you won’t be able to ‘absorb’ this things purpose or intent, and/or even discern how to alleviate the problem.
Easier said then done. I have troubles letting tension and stress go too. But I know that rigidity always keeps me from solving my problems, reaching trances, making contact, etc…
I am reminded, for some reason very strongly of a quote from Lao-Tzu: “Stop thinking and end your problems.”
Not sure if this helps or just ended up frustrating you more, but hopefully something will pop out for you here and help, even in some small way.
[quote=“Jaron E, post:77, topic:7620”]I ran into a poltergeist like entity at a haunted hotel I used to work at, I would feel angry and depleted of energy. It also attached itself to people and I felt it try to get me to open myself to it. Thats not to say its a brainless energy sucker, at one point I was projecting how much I hated the job and wanted to leave soon and time skiped an hour on me when I went downstairs. I’m going back today as a guest at an expo held there, it may be my last time to understand it. Though I know I don’t like how it makes me feel.
would you consider yourself "right hand path’? When I mentioned the wand blaster thing earlier I was not saying you literally have a wand your using in the name of god, rather the phenomena that people feel the need to direct righteous energy towards something that isn’t complying to their will instead of seeking to understand it. These bothersome occurrences don’t seem to be negatively affecting your life, like depleting your energy or attaching itself to you personally - just the things around you. Perhaps it deserves to be understood if it is that powerful to linger against you will. Does it really feel like an enemy?[/quote]
You have a point.I feel that it’s not attacking me or sucking my energy,but also i feel that it’s not an ally or a friend.And once again i can’t be sure for what is doing to me when i’m sleeping…
All i know is that i told it to leave,i told it to stop making these noises,and it’s doing the opposite.
@crimsonwolf.
Believe me i don’t care about what is it, what he wants or how i can communicate witih it.All i want is to kick his ass,because it’s annoying.
There’s nothing to use or to learn from it.