Ok I’m exhausted but here’s the rundown of the evocation that just happened. GAH!! I’m so frustrated because I can’t tell if it was just my imagination or if he was actually there or not. When I evoked Bune it was very clear that there was a presence in the room, but I also feel like my senses are being blocked or something. That’s part of why I wanted to do the ritual in the first place.
I kept getting messages that I should do an an evocation of him, and Bune said she thought I should go talk to him too. I confirmed this with a reading, so I did some meditation and began the evocation.
He wouldn’t show up at first. Then I got a voice in my head telling me to turn off the lights and only use candlelight, so I did that. I couldn’t really feel anything, I could just see the very very faint figure of a goat man in front of me. I took this as a good sign and closed my eyes.
He said, “You kept me waiting, girl.” He seemed really stern. Then he said, “So, what did you call me here for?”. He seemed miffed- I think I took too long to prepare… or maybe he was angry that I was ignoring the signs he was sending me for the past couple of weeks because i thought they were coincidence. Again, don’t know if this was in my head or not.
So I explained to him I was lost and needed some spiritual guidance and that I was seeking strength. He seemed to consider for a moment, then he said something like “You’ll need to conjure me for ten days”, and then I think he said “You must meditate for ten days using my enn”. And when I asked him what that would do, he said something about “unclouding my eye”.
Overall I’m frustrated that I couldn’t sense him more clearly. I’m frustrated that I can’t sense anything more clearly!! And even if all of this was in my head, I’m not going to risk it by failing to conjure him for the next ten days.
Anyways… thoughts on this? Do you guys think I actually conjured him even if I didn’t feel much of a presence?