Since I’ve started experimenting with the goetia, I’ve only been able to detect most of the spirits by energy and voice. Whenever there’s an exception to the rule, their physical appearance has a bunch of symbolism attached that teaches me something about their personality, or my mental state. Azazel is the next entity I’m going to work with closer as a mentor. My latest evocation of him got kind of weird.
His energy is the easiest to detect because it’s never subtle. It feels like you suddenly got caught in a fire tornado. I feel powerful just by being in his presence. But it also makes me slightly aroused, which isn’t something I’ve heard many people mention.
What made this awkward was, I’m a man, and Azazel typically appeared to me as a super muscular shirtless dude with a spear. And even before I could see him I acted really affectionate towards him on impulse. All this shit was throwing me off, and Azazel could tell, so he just shapeshifted into an amazon chick so we could finish telling me what he needed to say without me loosing my mind.
I already knew I was Bi, but I’m in the closest save for a few select people. I’m not 100% comfortable with my sexuality. Azazel is always shouting about self confidence being the core of power. When he says he’s going to liberate your mind and break mental barriers, he means literally all of them.
So yeah…that was fun. Moral of the story, learn self acceptance, make sure your sacral and solar plexus chakras work, and Azazel likes trolling people.