Hi,
Is it normal to feel attracted towards a deity like finding them attractive? 
Or is it disrepectful and shouldn’t be a thing?
I’m asking out of curiousity because I am feeling something like that but I don’t know if I even could lol
It’s not an every day thing but many mages end up with “spirit spouses”. Ask the spirit if it wants that kind of relationship. Ones like Lilith usually do, but be clear that they are espoused to hundreds of mages and not only for you.
Have a browse:
https://forum.becomealivinggod.com/search?q=spirit%20spouses