Recently nothing in my life has been going right.
It’s almost been a year since I did my first evocation. But as of recent things have been just plain bad.
First I haven’t really had much success with any of my evocations. This has been for a good 2-3 months. Things feel extremely dry and I’m putting in a lot of work projecting to the astral and becoming lucid in my dreams.
I have been requesting demons and spirits if they could help me become lucid a bit easier so I can make contact with them. I had recently done this but it was by me pushing through the dream, but in the end, I never felt them arrive or depart. Though I did see some images in my mind they haven’t been answered even though it’s been more than a month.
I’m really at a standstill and I feel like my evocations are quite useless because even a month after I asked for something that was totally in my reach, hasn’t even happened.
I don’t get much of a presence from any spirit and it makes me feel less involved in my workings. I do calm down when I evoke but even in the best state of mind, I can only feel some light energy. It’s been like that since when I first started.
Another thing is when I first started I had much help. I was assisted into the astral multiple times and I felt extremely happy in that time period. Everything was going right. I understand that’s not always the case but it’s been really me and me only. I’m honestly not quite sure of the issue that’s stopping me from being able to have that. I know that was because I was new to it and needed some help but with all the energy I’m putting in now, there’s no reason why I can’t produce that myself.
And making things worse Mepsithal confessed to my friend that I was talking smack behind her back. Which it wasn’t really talking smack because I was just complaining to my friends that she was hurting me and not caring for me. It’s gotten to the point where I’m regretting even telling her about Spirits and Demons since were on bad terms and I know she has been casting shit to make my life hard-As of 2 weeks ago.
I’m more pissed about Mepsithal outing me like that. I understand this could be false and she made that up so I would have a go at Mepsithal, but I can’t get into good enough contact to even ask if this was what happened.
Being at a standstill and having friendship drama isn’t something I want and I need help getting out of this.
I understand I have to take it into my own accords but some assistance from spirits would make it less intense in my life.
If anyone has any good suggestions to deal with these things it would mean a lot.