I have been pathworking with multiple Goetic entities. I was forced to give up all my addictions as part of my pact with Belial… Yeah, well, it’s been all good and dandy and I am extremely powerful now… but with a catch of course. I can’t smoke, I can’t beat off, I can’t do shit. And I’m angry. I mean, I am simply overflowing with anger. It is a very unholy anger that distracts me at times to the point where I can feel myself boiling over. I practice meditation for a long time each day. A long time. Even after this I am still fueled by a raging fire… even small shit irritates me. It has been a month since I have done any drugs, cigarettes, masturbation, etc. It’s not withdrawals. I am simply raging with anger.
For example, I made a topic concerning a Satanic wannabe. Just looking at that motherfucker makes me want to chop his head off and consume his eye balls. I usually pay no mind to this kind of simple shit. I have asked Belial what is going on and apparently this is the next part of my pathworking. I am to learn how to control my anger through all situations… and I must detach, he says. Detach, detach, detach, my son…
Fuck, man, this shit is hard. This shit is harder than anything I have previously worked through. I feel like I just need to fuck something… I haven’t had sex in MONTHS and I don’t mind but damn I feel like if I could just fuck the shit out of something I’d be good for about another week lmao.
I need assistance. I need guidance. Belial is of no help right now as this of course is one of his tests for my progression. I need assistance from you. I need tips, tricks, or techniques to conquer this fucking anger, man. Somebody give me some guidance… I’ll forever be in your debt. And for those beginners out there, trust me that if you thought the first step was hard, WOOH DADDY are you in for a surprise. I believe each challenge gets harder and harder. It’s a true test of will and determination.
PLEASE SEND HELP.