I have rarely talked openly about the deepest aspects of myself. There are two things I bring up.
I have seen the eye of the Dragon. Last summer (2019), I meditated until I saw the eye of the dragon. I ONLY saw the eye, it was scaly and green. The eye was like the color of fire. However, I wasn’t ready for what I had seen.
I cannot give up my belief in a Universal Power, that is more powerful than me. I have had the conversations with my Dad about not going down the road of Satanism - for him, it brings nothing but depression. I’ve listened. I’ve reasoned with myself. I will go on respecting the man who gave me life; however, I am learning it’s my life.
My Dad is visiting from out of state. This time it has been a challenge, as I want to be completely open with my Dad about things I am going through. However, I am not able to and it sucks! While sitting with my family over drinks, I completely shut down while they were discussing political stuff and other things when a couple of thoughts went through my mind.
What the thoughts were, do not matter. However, the truth came out at once. The revolution is female, meaning my revolution. It’s about a woman walking the pavement in high heels, knocking on the doors of people who have an understanding of being different - who want to see the absolute change.
It’s the man standing beside ME who waited patiently and calmly for me to step up to the plate - yet, I have no idea who or what he is. Or how this is supposed to play out.
It’s real. There is a darker side of Tiamat that most will not acknowledge. A darker side of Goddess Aset coming out which is why I keep silent. Ahriman brings up every single negative aspect of my mudane and dull life up.
Breaking chains is not any easy thing to do. For now, it’s the simple things to get to the bigger revolution for my soul.
Truth: Validate your own feelings - no matter how silly they seem.
For example, I yelled in my car today at how much my Dad bugs me at times.