Hello, guys! I’m a long time lurker and rare poster.
This time I’m here regarding a common, repeating situation of mine I deal with. I just want to know if I’m being messed around with parasites or if its “normal” (even though nothing with spirit work or the occult is normal hahaha) below will be context:
I’ve been a practicing pagan for a while now, when I was younger (16-18) I met one of my first Greek deity’s and we really bonded. In fact, we bonded so well, he proposed marriage to me once I hit 18 (at least he waited for me to be of age lmao) I was down right perplexed and rejected his offers multiple times. He was adamant in having my hand in spiritual marriage, after endless years of pursuit he succeeded. We’ve been together now for a steady 8-9 years. Of course, at such a young age, I had no understanding as to what it entailed to being married to him and why he pursued me so much. He repeatedly explained to me that I was married to him in a previous life, thus, he was determined to continue our relationship in this life out of his love for me. That we were destined to be with one another.
Super cool, super romantic right? I didn’t experience any sense of draining, no feelings of… parasitical attachments. Nothing. Since I’m older now, I decided to speak to other deities/spirits about what he told me and they all said the same thing: he was married to me previously and were destined to be together in this life. Alright, I guess. I also made sure he was the legit deity and others have confirmed that he was the real deal deity and he absolutely means it, yet, I still have doubt in my head and anxiety creeps up my spine as my brain goes, “okay but what if this is all a trick?” Though, he has proven himself multiple times and has continously comforted me endlessly. So, I caved in and accepted it with the help of another dear deity of mine who helped me find peace in my fated marriage.
Now, this is where my concern appears.
Odin has appeared (or re-appeared because he popped up in my life first when I was 21) and he is also claiming that I am fated to be married to him. I know Odin has the ability to lie and can be quite deceptive, but, I can’t seem to figure out as to why he would trick me into something like this? And because of how intense Odin can be, I am severely concerned as to what he says regarding me being destined to enter a spiritual marriage to me. It feels like I have no say in who I am to marry, just these deities who are spontaneously appearing and going, “rev up those wedding bells because we’re supposed to be married!”
I just need to know if this is normal at all or if I’m being severely fucked with, I do not think I am some big shot nor that I’m this dying beauty where Gods fucking… I don’t know… nut all over the ground for. It baffles me completely. I’m genuinely trying to understand the obsession they have with me and why they’re so determined in continuing this marriage when I don’t know if it even benefits them. I approached Lucifer about it and he even confirmed that, yes, it is apart of my path.
I just… I just can’t stop doubting. I find this unfathomable and need human confirmation.