Still making my way around the forum. I apologize if this has been mentioned before. Does anyone have any magic related suggestions for dealing with a physically and emotionally abusive mother? I live with her currently and I’m trying to escape the situation. I don’t say anything, don’t hit her back or anything like that. Respect for parents was really engrained in me. I came back and gave up a lot, modeling contract, financial freedom, happiness, relationship etc out of an obligation to take care of my mother as her daughter. But my mother is a narcissist and I’ve recently realized she will never change.
In return, it’s been pure hell. I’ve really lost everything and I want to cut the ties. I’ve reached my breaking point and not only do I want out of this situation but I can’t stomach being in her space for more than 2 hours and that’s a real challenge. Right now I want to move out as soon as possible but I gave up a job, car and any ability to make moves without her or my father’s approval to take care of her and now that she’s feeling better, I want out permanently.
In terms of just getting up and leaving…I’ve Been isolated so long that I don’t have any friends in the area. I literally have no other place to go at this moment. I am focusing on discreetly trying to find work whether online or in person and save up and move out that way. It’s been years of this and now that I’m in my early 30’s I’m really tired of it.
I finally managed to graduate from college, there’s someone I’m romantically interested in that, currently isn’t available (but I’m hoping magic will change that) that I had to give up years ago because of my mother.
I always feel guilty or afraid to stand against my mother but I’m not like that with other people. So part of the reason I was on this forum was to hopefully seek advice with this matter.
I appreciate any and all help.