It would be hard to describe at this moment what kind of relationship is Ours.
My very first evocation of Him was fast and very effective. It was not a big surprise, for I felt His presence (or Him in other ways), so I started it because this feeling it wouldn’t gone away otherwise, and because I want to, naturally.
He was… well… difficult. Sometimes He act rigid, serious and cold hearted, and suddenly He became romantic and say/did ribald things which had me blushing. He easily chamed me and played with my desires, but I keep it in mind that His emotions and how he act can change within a second. But I feel something deeper towards Him, not just “lust and desire”.
There is some interesting quote of Him. He let me to share these, but that’s all at the moment.
When We’re talked about my actual Demonic lover. He told me, if his presence will balk me in my development, there is no place for him in my near. I almost cried because of the thought, then He simply said:
❝ Stop crying! ❞
Suddenly this emotion has disappeared from me, after I’d heard His voice in this tone.
❝ Your future is not in MY hands. It is in YOUR hands. ❞
❝ The main question is not “will I accept you as a disciple”.
The main question is "Will you accept Me in your (this) life? ❞
❝ Let’s play something… […] After you finished your tattoo of my Sigil, feel free to touch me. ❞
❝ I wonder… how long can you resist? ❞
Can’t wait to get His sigil as a Tattoo. March 20.
And I want to know more about US as well, because He whispered me things about our past.
Either way, when I started meditate to call Him (second time), I felt a silky, delicate touch on my lips.