On the nature of spiritual attack:
what I wanted to do with this post was to describe the nature of the attacks that happened to myself due to bad practice and to write about countermeasures that worked for myself. Feel free to comment your perspective if you desire so
On resume:
- Something wrapped on my crown
- A very felt bite on my neck
- My core or solar plexus felt attacked with punches and everything. Image a magnet that feels itself robbed of its magnetic camp and it’s accompanied of pain, that I felt on my core
- Ominous feeling on my room or a cloud/nerves on my mind that went away through banishing
- Repeated nightmares of zombies, vampires, and fighting through the months on different occasions
- Sexual nature of attacks.
I probably forgot a few instances but this was through the span of the last year/ end of 2024 and as you can imagine it’s not pretty, on a brighter note I got it under control yet still I’m dealing with nightmares until a few months ago the most common one were the core attacks, those were painful to the point I recoil on the physical plane for a second after waking up.
A lot of those problems looking back I can sense why I was at fault:
- The opening of my spirit to the subtler realms while I was on a bad mental state
- The lack of banishing or spiritual hygiene due to doubts or lack of will
- Playing around too much with the concept of love and of spirit lovers that may had had consequences even if certain ritual was not made (yeah..)
- Taking too much time to start developing myself, even if those were simple habits like nutrition, exercise or studies and not the magical ones.
- On a dream I had the key to the most beautiful chests and had plenty of them, but instead of opening one and equipping myself I spent time admiring them and pondering the meaning of life while I was under attack by two monsters, in the end I was dead. The symbolism makes itself very clear yikes.. I should’ve practiced more instead of pondering religion, occultism and philosophy.
Maybe a lot of pain was necessary to reach some form of stability yet that is another matter. The most confusing thing about these attacks was the fact that I very much suspect that there were two kind of spirits involved if we leave the whole demons or angels aside. A more benevolent one in nature yet sexual one and the other more animalistic, aggressive and vampiric in nature. I decided not to feed with attention and meditation the first one even If I had the chance to allow the sensations to advance and feel better due to the chance of it being a recipe for disaster if I played with something that I do not know the nature of (even if in suspicion I thought of it not to be evil). So always in my banishing I make it clear to clean everything. Around these days I do not feel the first kind anymore, at least for now.
Let my focus a little bit on the attacks themselves:
The first one is a direct attack on the area of the crown, crown chakra or whatever. Imagine waking yourself to something that sounds like a dark Mongolian throat chant and a cold and black sphere visualized in there. Before this experience that was more than a year ago I think I used to get more subtler sensations from the other realm like voices, I already felt the lack of direction in life then but I think this one exalted the problem, I don´t remember much from then yet an attack on the crown I theorize would make you disconnected from intuition or spirit itself as I remember that I never slept well around that time. Last night I’ve bounced again between theta and alpha during sleep and I felt something again on my crown, instead of there being a thick black mass what I felt was like a sphere made out of wind that emitted a tempest sound, it did not feel bad yet it did surprise me. I don’t know if it was my own crown or energy yet it is progress nonetheless from the first point.
Then there were the attacks on the solar plexus, those stopped a few months ago I think? I already commented on how they felt yet thinking on how can such think work I belive that the objective itself was the induction of fear through attack so I would be weak willed or scared, I never felt robbed per say yet maybe it could’ve escalated if I had succumbed to fear and inaction, as the pain only lasted a second I decided to get angered and exasperated, all of these attacks occurred on my being while I was asleep yet due to circumstances on dreams or a constant uncomfortableness during my sleep I woke up to these occurrences, as expected of a coward and a weakling.
Then the nightmares and the cold ambience of the room, sometimes when I got down for a little moment of meditation I found myself being not on edge yet weary, like I felt the presence of something cold and I imagined very clearly movement, at one point I got bitten and sucked on my neck with sounds and feelings included. On the long term I think these subtler vibration may have had an effect on my emotional and mental body. Through banishing the room returned to a more neutral state this led me to ponder on the world above along its effects on our subconscious and our actions here on earth.
What exactly changed within me I wonder? make no mistake I still posses nightmares if I slack off with banishing and so on yet these things do not throw me down as hard as they used to, maybe I’m more irritable during the day if such things happen. Whatever the answer to what changed within me I would say that the main methods that I used to give myself space to breath were Raziel ward which worked as a charm and the Planetary LBRP complex yet it helped me a ton with visualization. That alongside with looking for physical and mental wellbeing seemed to help the most.
So here we are, I tried to not risk paranoia and blaming everything on spirits so I’d not rob myself of authority and I focused on doing the work here on earth and a little bit on the mental plane yet looking back it it is clear that it was not paranoia at all and I dealt with something nasty. Yet on another hand I was the one that allowed this to happen for my own lack of judgement, to illustrate the few times that I left my body my surroundings were noisy, dark and uncomfortable, on a few occasions it was so until I calmed down and imagined sunlight and the ambience did an 180 incredibly quickly, so much that I couldn’t believe the astral could be so peaceful.
Maybe I harbored inside me such an expectation of the spirit world and the entity just stepped in to fill it’s role in the ambience that I created, helping me polarize myself towards that side of thinking. An attack on spirit means an attack to change ones own being and way of acting which would help harboring the necessary vibrations for such negative beings to exist in proximity to one microcosms, the more fear the better as you would create expectations of lack of power and give attention to an entity that is delighted in such things and so gains power to act, that if you are aware of the other side through dreams, trance or sixth sense. If not spiritual attack can be thought of as a change in the pattern’s of thinking which would lead to one of the capitals sins (for me sins means a concrete way of acting towards negative feelings creating a vicious cycle of self destruction)
An interesting case I thought about is how Pentecostal church’s sometimes treat any addiction, disease and Sins as a spirit (as in entity) to be combatted and banished from one’s body and mind and miraculously some people get rid of vice or illness then and there so yeah.. As above so below I guess.
In any case Banishing and Warding is an efficient solution yet I cannot think of it as acceptable ending to this problem, those are only a counterbalance. The real problem lies within me, think of it like putting a tape on a leaking pipe yeah you stopped the attacks yet the problem that allowed this to happens still lives within you, you still possess that hole, what are you gonna do about it? keep banishing forever? although necessary for spiritual hygiene its not an acceptable long term solution, just one part of the puzzle towards fixing that leak on my being.