Hello everyone, this is quite a long story but i will try to summarize it:
1 or 2 years ago:
I had 3 episodes about walking in the street and seing in my mind a “death like” figure behind me, putting his scyte in front of my neck and laughing about that, i mantained myself quiet but a bit tense, wondering if my life was threatened by some inevitable ailment.
After those episodes (all of them equals) things were quiet for a lot of time and i didnt get any deadly disease.
I dont have any great psychic perception yet (i am working on that) and for good or ill, i have developed a mind with very little thougts, so my slate is clean most of the time and i dont find difficult to concentrate in something if i am motivated enough.
One week ago: I completed my process of stop being fearfull of my own spiritual development (things like “i am too young to try to achieve illumination” (i am 24) or “i will lose contact with the material world which i need to success”).
After that i found this forum, interested in soul travel, energy development and theurgy…Then i had the idea to google who was my guardian angel and archangel depending on my zodiac sign, I am an so i found Angel Malchedael (which was strange because he represented the virtues i have been cultivating trough my short life) and Archangel Samael, known for being an Archangel of DEATH and destruction and “The poison of god” it sounded cool but i kept reading and concluded that this spirit is not very friendly for a noob to invoke/evoke.
However, the signs continued, i remembered my experience with the misterious “death like figure”, one day after i knew Samael existence, a chapter of Law and Order S.V.U portrayed a homeless man with porfhyria who believed himself to be…Yes , SAMAEL (i think the chapter is called “control”).
Yesterday, the name of Samael resonated inside the usual void of my mind and i spontaneusly visualized while i was listening music (new god of war intro) how a tall black figure with wings was “fusing” with me and lending me its power (i felt very powerfull in the middle of my office job, weird enough)
Today i feel very relaxed (i practice a buddist meditation that help me being like that), but my answers to people and face are “martial”, i mean rough , and my troath feels constantly dry no matter how much water i drink (plus i am wearing red)…And Samael is an spirit of mars…
My questions are:
Is this only a coincidence?
If i am being contacted,Why such a baddass archangel would want something with a noob like me?
Thank everyone for reading and helping me solve this riddle.