Hmm thats not exactly question i might answer but lemme try to read it.
Changes in yourlife goes from your mental instability, you need to learn yourself how to get more confidence and make your wishes come true. Other way it will make obstacles in your life especially in material gain and well being. Right now focus on realised desires and your success to gain it. Do not focus on rushing into decisions and doing something because its popular or might bring you popularity. You should focus now on your emotions and slowly accept them and change them as you please.
From my other deck there are 2 suggestions for it : when you doubt in everything around you, you become untrustfull for it. you should stop being angry at reality around you, you are the one who creates it. Open yourself for it and change it to make it as you wish .The other one is : True respect is comming from true freedom. First think what it means for you, and then give a freedom for this around you. Freedom should means they can do whatheaver they please, as same as you. Accept their choices and decisions.