Hello forum! I need an answer on tis, or atleast theory- Let me explain… I was speaking with Mammon, and I knew that he destroy’s in order to “build is back up”. HOWEVER, in my last few day’s I have had an overwhelming feeling to cause physical harm to another, perhaps in a violent manner. After I pre"acted" this behaviour out and it is NOT who I am which leads me to believe that maybe Mammon could be causing me to behave like this.
Once I’d done all this, after being full of momentary but tremendous rage, I took a step back, looked through my journals and searched this site regarding a spell I cast with Mammon and though I knew the risks, I wonder if this is either truly Mammon doing his work in his style, OR if this was just inside me. I’m not prones to rage, but as a kid, I do remember that I had rage issues, but after counselling (keep in mind that this is around ages 8-13 and I’m 47… no, 48 as of today… Happy BIrthday to Me, right?.,… ugh)
Bottom line, what do you ion te forum thing? Is it Mammon or is it something I could have repressed psychologically within me? A LOT of big questions, if anyone has insight, it would be helpful. Please do not ridicule, just constructive criticism… I can handle that. Thank you all!