Actually, i didn’t felt sexual at all, after i had spoken the words under the fullmoon.
*next time (today? a day after) will i bring also some incence with me…to throw it into the glowing red of the dying fire.
-The preparations were done in the dark and pretty hastily, and because the moon was first hidden behind clouds, my phone’s light had to do the job.
In addition to what was written in "dark towes publishing"s book: “lilith goddess of sitra ahra”, i used some chalk and sheets of black paper, to draw those two circles and the words
alash ta al-ash tal ashtu
I also spoke them a couple of times…
~And after all incantations had been spoken into the fading darkness, until the moon in all its beauty shined down to me, my handdrawn copy of that sigil with my blood on it, and my cirlce.
I felt peace.
~As i left, i did it because of the cold night, not because of fear (thanks to tyrosine)
I was allmost “high” -no, it was more like a happy ride back to home after an evening with a good friend.
I did those two invocations by Lucien von Wolfe, the ode to lilith and the invokation given from baal kadmon in his short “book” about lilith.
But i know, this was just the first baby step.
Hint: I would like to put incence every 50m on the path to the place which i used.
~i would put them into the sandy ground, and they would guide me and the dark ones to the place.
P.S.: I have an idea: some of the huge area -in use for open-cast mining,
will i use next *sunday at night, with tons of incense, and a great prentragram or circle in the sand… -or maybe even a ring of coals and spiritus, to BURN a fucking circle into the ground…a bus length in diameter.
*=the christians mixed it up long time ago: sunday is actually the day of saturn
~The real days in the week are: moon day, mercuy day, venus day, sun day, mars day, jupiter day and saturn day.