I am so very sorry beyond words you experienced those things.
I think the necessity of getting this off your chest is clear, and I honour your experiences.
Because anyone placing a contrary point of view cound potentially just cause this thread to become an argument, with people taking sides or creating factions, I thank everybody who has contributed so far and will close the thread so that passions do not rise out of control and cause fractures on the forum.
You may wish to do some kind of rite to sever the memories of past abuses? I humbly offer this as a starting point: