You should lerk this forum more then, this place is a Biography and so are the books by Authors here. You’d realize this place won’t find what you seek as petty or stupid but you do need to look around here in order to get a better grasp of what you want.
Did you do an intro yet? It’s part of the forum rules so people can get to know you and help you better.
Click this link I’ve posted to make an intro.