Where am I'm going with magick

There alway to become a better person and make me potential fully realized and want I to help those in need. I am kind to others but feel like it can be my downfall at times. Definitely don’t want stagnant when practicing magick waiting for my tarot cards in the mail so i start divination and I’m to be do evocation of king Paimon this month kind of nervous about it.also doing energy working. I’m trying wrap my head around all this magick stuff it can be hard to fellow but I’m doing my best. This forum can be reassuring when reading all the posts usually leave with some mix feeling.This probably one best forum I’ve encounter and I’m thankful for it existence. Thank for reading peace and blessing.