Okay, let me boil this down. All and any potential relationships or people I end up crushing on end in disaster.
My first relationship ended after two weeks. She decided to chase after some other guy and ended up getting cheated on by the same dude but, she did nto come back to me, instead fooled around with another guy and ended up with her best friend. I seek no vengeance for her or anything like that.
My second relationship ended after two days. She said she felt pressured and then a week after told me she never liked me anyway regardless of the flirting we did for an entire month. We even gave each other nicknames.
My best friend-I confessed to her, she said no because she thought she wasn’t mature enough for a relatioship at the time. A year later, she was a bitch to me abd didn’t respect my feelings and in turn, I was a dick to her and didn’t respect how she felt. Inevititably I got over her again and then fell for her again and got over her again. It’s a cycle you know. I still care for her but as a best friend.
My Turkish friend-everytime I developed feelings for her, she’d end up in a relationship or the moment I would tell her how I felt, she’d say she wasn’t ready yet and that it just wasn’t the right time yet because well, she was in fact going through a lot-home life wise, mental health wise etc.
So, now we come to the most recent one. I develop a crush on one of my classmates for no other reason than she was doing that thing girls do when they want a guy to notice them. Glaring at me then darting her eyes away. So, I do the same thing to her and start smiling at her to be friendly you know. To show I’m interested and also that I want to get to know her better rather than you know, showing a general disinterest. What happened earlier today was simple. Her friends asked me whether or not I had a crush on her and me knowing it would only go to her if I told them, denied it. As to be expected, they told me she didn’t like me and found my friendliness and gazing back at her to be creepy and makes her uncomfortable.
So then, am I cursed? Or riddled with bad luck. And it’s not because I lack confidence, I am confident. Hence why I tried to return the same signs and be friendly rather than showing disinterest. How long has this been happening to me for you might ask? Five years. Only got my first kiss three years ago when I was 15 and still haven’t had sex yet(cept for spiritual sex )