long story but…
the first time i saw her 2 years ago in school i had felt an immediate connection to her soul and heart,i felt that i knew her even now i know how is she feeling and her thoughts many things happened,like something does not want to be together with her maybe we are too young to be together with her (possibly soulmate)
when i am near with her i feel in peace
once my vision had become clearler when i was with her, literally
and my chakras explode from energy,especially the crown,3 eye heart and root
i know that she is building herself i can sense mistakes that she does,like ego focusing in wrong things family problems and these kind of stuff,i know that she is angry lately.but some assholes last year they yell at school chidishly that i love her and these kind of shit and now she sees me with a wrong eye,i told her that i love her but she rejected becuase of that
i truly love her,i truly do
uncondiontionaly,all that pain and stress of the past 2 years i still do,
some people told me that i should find a other girl,in summer 2018 when i thought i lost it i took that advice and was looking for other girls,seeing chatting talking but all i felt was lying to my soul and heart
anyways now she ignores me becuase she sees me with a bad eye and probably yeah its too early (i am young as fuck lol,15 now)
but in heavy depression she was my motivation to be strong and rain down the fury of a thousand suns into enemies and things that bind,she is a lot for me.
but lately i accepted my rejection from her.
cried written literally PAGES of poems made of repressed emotions and love but i see her name everywhere.EVERYWHERE
i know there will be more with her in future.
even on this forum when i research some stuff i see her name.on random instagram,facebook posts and accounts,it looks like when a demon is seeking you when you see the demon’s name everywhere,same thing with her.
sorry if this post is messy as hell,but i need put this out of my chest.