Before doing the rituals I normally feel quite happy and energised, motivated and positive as that is when I choose to do them, when I am feeling receptive to them. During, I normally get a feeling of vibrating, like my speech vibrates and I feel almost tired, but in a good way like I am expanding. I notice my pointer arm gets sore but I normally feel energy move in my awareness as I do the ritual so I feel succesful most of the time. Afterwards I normally feel clearer, relaxed and lightheaded. I feel as though the space is refreshing around the area and I can feel a nice relaxing energy about myself.
I have been doing the, for about two months. My life has generally stayed the same but it has changed a little that’s for sure. Once I did feel as though the ritual energised my meditation and prayer and there was a synchronicity with the energy too. And I do feel more grounded and protected from doing the rituals. I have come across people who have energetically healed me too. I mean what are the chances, I believe it was from the ritual.
But my life otherwise has not changed significantly… why? Well I guess the rituals are more subtle and work in subtle areas. I feel cleansed and energised, so I feel it is working to cleanse and energise but I don’t think it is going any further than that.
So I want to learn something that will bring me more power. I’m interested in evocation but not sure where to start.