It called to me. It showed itself to me. I was already morbidly curious everything related to the paranormal and I was the kind of person who wanted the truth. Apparently that just gave every cosmic Force imaginable a super boner because at some point some of my guides decided that it was time to get shit done they hit me over the head with it until I saw it for what it was, I started noticing synchronicities and really really pushed it. Through a whole lot of frustration that ended up here, and the rest is documented
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Synchronicities all the damn time. I saw the number 13 literally everywhere for 3 months straight.
So I searched on the internet for the meaning: a big change/transformation is coming. At the time I had no clue what it could be so I was nervous.
And one day a thought popped up in my head about angels (and demons after) and did a search on amazon for books about these spirits. I stumbled upon GOM books and fell into the rabbit hole lol
It started with Kurt Seligmann’s “History of magic”: ‘devils’ who can appear to you, grant invisibility, riches or knowledge. The magician who climbs the steps of minerals, vegetables, animals, stars etc. or the alphanumeric methods of Qabalah…
Also I don’t know if I was somewhat right, but in time I gave a special meaning to some disturbing dreams such as me jumping inside a castle and remaining mid-air; or a crucifix which was in a bedroom of my first home, and in the dream it appeared as made of glass, iron and so on, along with a comment which specified each time the material… Well, it seems almost funny but at the time I felt it nightmarish.
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I was tired of not knowing anything. I felt like crap and I never had a sense of direction for life. I had a bad experience with a demon. It possesed someone I knew and never felt like I would ever talk to not think another demon. But after a while I started to read on demons and felt like it was a guilty pleasure. Something that I felt was so wrong but so right. After awhile I found this site and started going hardcore into it. Learned alot from the forum. But it’s still not enough to read about someone else’s encounters with them. So I took it up for myself and now I’m training non stop on my sense so I can learn from there beings. (Burned myself out not long ago and had to take a brake 
) back at it now feeling better than ever.
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I wanted to learn myself, to gain a greater understanding of myself.
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I find discomfort in “demonic” aesthetics. Things attributed to demons that aren’t really present in them. Like brimstone and the blood and the satan stuff. I find discomfort in dogmas. So like christianity didn’t help much either. I find it less easy to be “easy” around demonic presences but they don’t bother me.
What did the prayers do for you? Did you feel/see anything?
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No reason, just decided to do it on a whim.
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Define whim
Exactly how it’s defined in the dictionary.
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Ever since I telepathically talked with a woman and with success. She could read all my thoughts and gave answer at the same time.
That’s where I thought: “ok magick works and is real after all”
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I understand. I believe You will accomplish all You need 
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Wow nice 
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Truth is it was the only path for me to take one day i just snaped nothing else could promise me power but im great now the bills get payed im secure and strong and my mother is happy
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I’m glad to hear that
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Series of heartaches
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I’m so sorry to hear that 
I know this pain 
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It’s complex, but long story short, I have always had a protective element that has worked through several people that have been present in my life. I stumbled upon magick while looking into information about Lord Lucifer and Lord Satan, who I believe either are the protective element or are at least tangentially related to who or what it is.