I apologise if this is in the wrong thread, I’m unsure of where to write this.
I’m going to cut a long story short, I have suffered from an eating disorder when I was about 14-15. I relapsed last year, but I’ve recently gone back into it.
Anyway, since this morning Azazel’s name has been appearing in my mind. At first, I didn’t know what to do. As far as I know, I haven’t called upon him. I found this fourm tonight, read a few topics. I felt like I needed to create an account, like a pull that can’t be shaken off. Since his name has appeared to me, I’ve felt an urge to eat a bit more than usual today.
I’ve also seen white and blue flashes, sometimes followed by what seems to be a black mist moving from one side of the room to the other quickly.
What is happening? I thought maybe I’m going mad, or it’s all in my head. Could it have something to do with me relapsing?