I tend to think of ‘hell’ as being mainly on Earth. Having gone through quite a lot of s**t in my time, I don’t think anything I could encounter 'on the other side could be much worse frankly.
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thanks for sharing everything its really fascinating. so you juat meditated got 4 hours and then was off into that place you described? that’s extraordinary it really is. I wish I could fully comprehend everything but obviously words dont do it justice. did you astral project during meditation?
the most interesting/epic thing I have ever experienced that i can actually remember was one time I was on lsd woth friends and we were taking hits of 80x salvia when i was 18 i think. and I took that hit and literally left this world i can’t really explain it i was In another reality where it was all white but me and this other massive being that had no shape but was as high as I could see. it was all like 2 dimensional extremely flat. thia being asked me something about life or told me something. I really wish I remembered so bad. and then I ltterallybfell throwing myseld like i melted from my head straight down to my feet and went back to my body. I thought I saw god at that point when i thought back on it later. but now I think it may have been my godform or higher self. I’ve never heard of those terms before this forum.
anyways when i got back to my reality i didn’t know who I was or whonmy friends were for like half hour. I was and literally felt reborn in that moment. that’s the best way to explain it.
that’s the closest experience i could relate to yours but like I said i was drug induced but very real nonetheless.
I just felt like sharing 
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Thanks for the encouragement, but my mind is pretty made up. It’s down to principle in my case. Why should a prosecutor get any kind of conviction if it isn’t justice? I intend to rob them of that, as well as send them a letter when I go with some bits of hair or something since killers often like to have trophies.
For me, going through life with even a single mark on my background check is out of the question. Moreover, if people just keep rolling over and taking plea deals, prosecutorial overreach will never be questioned. More people should do drastic things to force others to shed some light on one of America’s greatest problems.
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My twin commited suicide just before turning 18, he was resitated, and lived another 20 years. He wandered my dreams and that of my retarded relative. I feel he has moved on finally. Its been some time since he visited - he was a lost boy practicing witchcraft has the family would say. I miss hearing him and seeing him… he has a place on my ancestors alter. So some move on in time where i have no clue but i feel peaceful when i reach for him
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Thanks For Sharing,I Hope He Is In A Better Place
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I’m just going to drop this here because topics like these often get found later by people who are in a difficult place, and also, I hope anyone posting will consider at least some of the information:
If you, or anyone else, are having thoughts of hurting yourself, it is important that you discuss them with someone who is qualified to help, such as a crisis helpline in your country. Please visit this link to find the appropriate number:
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Please seek help from a medical professional if that’s where you’re at right now.
Here are some additional contacts, also for anyone else who finds this topic and is feeling the same way:
US: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255)
US LGBTQ Youth (the Trevor Project): 1-866-488-7386
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UK Samaritans: 116 123 (UK) & 116 123 (ROI) free of charge, or e-mail: [email protected]
Almost every country has a similar crisis line and people who are waiting to hear you out, and help as much as possible.
If that seems too much to handle, consider joining this group that offers non-judgmental peer-support if you think it will be supportive:
This might also help, if you can’t talk to anyone right now, no matter how supportive:
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yeah I hope I don’t get reborn been making pacts with the demonic for assuring I stay in the infernal empire when I die…
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oh dear God even BALG can’t discuss suicide I guess it really is that taboo… being said I have the suicide hotline number on my phone no joke…
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Where did i say that?
Encouraging people or sharing tips, no, that can’t be done, discussing experiences and so on is different. Be supportive, you can’t be a LIVING god if you’re dead now, can you?
Me too. Saved my life in the past, I never forget, also donate to them when we can.
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I’m already in therapy free paid by the American government lol and am on medication 
@LucifugeAzazel i was just discussing what cabin in hell i would be booking depending on what religious cult is right. Mormon - 2ND RING OF HELL ( NEVER KILLED NEVER MOLESTED AND I AM A JUST LUCIFER LOVER) catholic- heaven ( never aborted a child like the nuns and never molested children ans lied about it like priests) Jehovah- wait isnt this the idea of heaven?
@Lady_Eva I have watched this posted and finally had the courage to talk about him. Suicide is mocked all too often, we all feel desperation and i personally came to the left side of the street because of the ridiculous comments the right side made about it.
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I don’t think they’d go to Hell. Maybe they’d remain stuck on this planet as a ghost. Maybe whatever haunted them in life torments them in the afterlife.