People will always throw steps to meditation to cross your legs in lotus and sit for 10 minutes or longer… but what is the actual definition of meditation?
Definition of Magick?
What motivated me to ask was I did not know I have been doing magick for my entire life because I didn’t know it was called that. I just knew the feeling. I learned that I was doing magick and was not a beginner at it from a read I got from someone I trusted and I was shocked. I don’t think I actually understood the words of occultism but yet the feeling of what it brings is so familiar.
I have been performing will-based magick. I don’t do rituals, at least I don’t believe so. I just sit in front of a candle and whatever I feel at my core, I command. I stray away from “wishful thinking” and assure that isn’t the case, but commanding has a different feeling for me when I am deadset on a target. It feels like the room is much silent yet very audible. It feels like the world is like a dream. It is different than saying “I want goddamn tootsie rolls to appear at my feet.” Been doing it since I was young, but of course not with candles - just with visualization. It feels like a liminal space. Does that sound familiar or is this just another “damn that’s trippy” circumstance?
For other practitioners, is this what magick actually is? Maybe it can help beginners understand what certain terminologies mean by associating the feeling with it. At least that’s how I learn.
Definition of Meditation
I have sat in meditation willfully before. I am someone who typically cannot sit still but when I was able to, I felt tuned into the environment around me. It was more than just sitting still and waiting till the clock goes off. I felt the smallest molecules in my body. Yes I had mundane thoughts about getting ready to do the laundry but I let that set aside by reminding myself that it wasn’t even real. It’s just a task. I get myself into that state (not sure what it’s called) by asking myself “what is actually real”? And I stop defining and just feel what is true. For example, I feel the warmth of the sun, I am feeling very very calm - and gosh it feels so pleasant - and I start naming those feelings in my chest. That is how I get into it. But I am unsure if that is meditation.
I am at the point where I want to be able to read occult books and actually understand them rather than seeing them as steps needed to do. I have read Dion Fortune’s Psychic Self Defense book which has helped me put magick into perspective rather than just “another weird day at work.” Hence, I ask this. I realize I am a feelings-based person.
I also used ChatGPT before but I am sick of its sugarcoat and very skeptical of what it even brings up.