In the years that I have been practicing magic, I have seen many inner and outer changes, and I can say that there are patterns of thoughts and actions that change in your life for the better, and some aspects of your life materialize what is according to your will.
But one of the things that I have not managed to change and maybe I have not put so much focus on and should be paramount, is my family.
I tell you a bit my story in summary
My nuclear family has always been very violent, physically and psychologically.
I, and my brothers have suffered from psychological and physical abuse
My parents until today, who I have known them for 27 years, are still very violent and abusive among them, when I was a child I saw how they were physically and psychologically ill-treated.
I get very bad with my brother from childhood to adolescence, and even in adulthood I stopped talking to him completely for about 6 years, since he, following the family, also abuse me in different aspects and in a very violent way
My mother is neurotic, 365 days a year she is nervous, screams, discusses and is unhappy about everything in reality.
I could continue and play the role of victim, but that is why I come to you, because I have never liked the role of victim and say “I grew up in hell and the fault is theirs” … NO, I’m not like that
Also, I am a magician and the owner of my life!
Regarding the above, what do you recommend me to do?
Is there a possibility to “heal the family”? Is it better to leave everything behind?
I have even considered the possibility of never seeing them again in my life, and even, not having children since it would seem horrible to me to meet some grandparents and family of this type.
What do you recommend in the magick and also the psychological?
Many greetings to all always for the help they provide, You are a great community!