intresting it may help me to over my addiction to opiom for 5 years . thank you
My life went downhill after being given Ritalin for diagnosed ADHD.
I have always dealt with severe fatigue (unsure whether it’s psychosomatic or physical - or both) so when I was prescribed Ritalin and I cleaned EVERY THING with some added motivation to learn what I always wanted to learn but didn’t have the energy… I basically hopped right into snorting them within the first month after someone told me about doing it that way.
I went from being able to stretch it out for 2 weeks to taking it all in 2 or 3 days.
I had a dream last night after doing a ritual with Lucifuge Rofocale that I was trapped in a glass box in a hospital bed where I was being forced to withdraw and recover from my addiction to my medication. This kid came into the room somehow and threw a box of ants all over my body which pissed me off, so I stormed out there and these creepy people I didn’t know were in this room retaliated against this kid by revealing rotting corpses scattered throughout the place, and began doing weird shit with these corpses to freak him out, and I joined in on this.
Still trying to work through the symbolism with that one, but I pretty much feel that Lucifuge Rofocale is going to help me get off my medication, and if anyone tries to sabotage my efforts (Including myself) then there will be “hell to pay”.
I’m going to start fasting, drinking a lot of water, cleansing my chakras, and exercise in the manner that is described here: How to Wield the Bloody Mace (Insights from Aeshma) - #5 by anon40900405
Yesterday I was watching a video of powerful mantras/chants that EA was reciting, and the name “Aesha” popped into my head. I couldn’t find anything, and then later I heard again, but emphasized, “Aesh-MA”, in which case I gasped out loud.
A few nights ago I had a dream that I was drawing a sigil into a pile of dirt, and this sigil was supposed to be Azazel’s, but I can’t recall what it looked like.
Before that, I felt that Lucifer came to me.
I have a feeling that Lucifuge Rofocale sent Aeshma (I have read he is Asmodeus but I’m sticking with Aeshma as that is how he introduced himself to me). King Paimon urged me to speak with Lucifer, who pointed me towards Azazel, who I believe pointed me towards Lucifuge Rofocale.
Anyway, blabbering away over here, basically I feel that I have some really powerful demons on my side, and they all want me off my medication and on the treadmill.
Keep us updated on your recovery! I’m right there with you.
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Also, I’d like to add that all of this began to occur as I have been practicing Void Meditation, and implementing darkness into my life rather than trying to get away from it. I can’t remember the thread on this forum so I’ll have to find it and link it here, but you basically begin by sitting in a dark room until you aren’t afraid, begin meditating in the dark, then slowly transition to going outside in the dark and becoming one with the void in that way. It is a very good post with a lot of detail, and i’ve begun to prefer sitting in the dark.
I’ll be implementing the darkness into the practice of giving my pain during exercise as an offering to Aeshma while picturing my “ideal self” by going on a strenuous run through my neighborhood when it is dark outside rather than hitting a gym or exercising in the daytime.
Combining these two things should wield some powerful results.
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