After being guided to Koetting’s work, Ive been lurking around here for a few months, gradually separating information from bullshit and looking for missing puzzle pieces in my own journey…youve all been quite helpful to me whether youre aware of it or not!
At this point Ive hit a bit of a speedbump, and with noone knowledgeable enough my life to shed some light on the situation, I figured going ahead and actually posting here might give me some answers.
I recently evoked Azazel and requested that he show me my own true nature, the various things that may be preventing me from fully becoming this, and what I can do to remove these blockages.
Quite a few little worldly problems and mental barriers were shown to me, and so much advice was given that I could probably write a book on it. However, the most important thing he saved for last, and he told me it would be the final issue to fix before I unleash the god within.
He showed me an entity…it looked like a cloud of black smoke, which seemed to be staying near me, yet keeping its distance at the same time. He said this creature has been with me since I was born, and was actually “assigned” to prevent me from reaching full self-realization. It can only act from a distance, affecting mental vibrations and causing distractions…whatever it has to do to keep me off my path.
Now I remember E.A. saying that for a lot of situations, all you need is the entity’s name. (i may be incorrect on this). I brought this up, and Azazel said that to know its name, to speak or even think it, would bring the entity within a much closer reach where it could act fully on me, and then the game would REALLY begin. He said at this point, I am in no shape yet to deal with a creature of this type.
It made me feel at a loss, so I was told I have 2 options at this point. Technically one since I am on the ascension path. I can focus on raising my power to a point where I can banish this thing away from me…but that could take months or years.
The other option is to seek out someone much, much more powerful than myself and have them deal with it for me…the catch is that this creature is a “trickster” and only very highly ascended beings would be even able to even sense its presence.
I did try evoking Metatron and having him take care of this, and was only told that this is part of my awakening…so…wtf? I realize that this may sound far fetched even in a spiritual sense, but Azazel’s words about this have been ringing through my head for a week now, and I just need SOMEONE to give me some insight.
Other than to just continue what Im doing…any ideas?