Let’s talk about our big steps, breakthroughs, revelations.
On march 28th I had 2 dreams about it. I’ll try and keep it short, as they were very detailed.
On the first one, reality sucked, but if someone completed a game of connect the dots (a reference to qabalah and qlipphot) a new reality would be created, which apparently had 50% chance of being worse or better. I did it and the new reality was awesome. Souls reincarnated to the new reality and I went to the Egyptian heart scaling room before being reborn too, now as a king. Turns out the “chance” thing was fake (I think one of it’s meanings is about dreams - GOOD/BAD DREAMS AREN’T RANDOM). I also got this message clearly stated: TRUST YOUR BRAIN.
On the second dream, I was entering a black hole, which I knew represented Chaos. I was terrified but didn’t give up. I got out off a white hole. The black hole talked to me in a female voice, helping me, but I don’t remember her words.
At that point (before the dreams) I was having a rough time, low on energy, I was stagnant. I had asked Lilith for help even though I couldn’t offer anything in return. Those dreams were just what I needed. I felt the message “TRY AGAIN.” I’m feeling better now.
Now, last night (June 1st) I listened to this lucid dreaming music as I fell asleep:
Highly recommend it!
I had 2 dreams as well, one was about an unrelated issue but in the second one, I entered the black hole again, and wasn’t afraid.
The black hole talked again, guiding and comforting me. She was clearly an outside entity in this dream and in the previous one, but I don’t know if she’s an amalgamation of Lilith and Tiamat, potentially more gods too or just Tiamat but I think she’s an amalgamation of multiple gods & goddesses. I addressed her as Mother Chaos.
Within the black hole I crawled through tunnels that constantly forked and was afraid that the reality I’d end up in would be bad/unstable. But I was reassured I was safe and those paths were also neural networks (mix of micro and macrocosm).
Consciously, I don’t know what it means to be a god, to build a reality. But I know I can trust Mother Chaos, the Infernals, and myself.
I’m ever improving my behavior, even during my lows I keep my determination of going forward. It’s hard, but I’m not alone. Reaching out is of primordial importance - reaching out to non-physical beings and humans alike.
Now I want to hear a little of your stories and knowledge.